Reflections of 2007

Bottomline: It is normal. Not so good, not so bad. It has basically 2 sides to everything.

Anyway, just to review what I have wrote for my resolutions for 2007.

I will personally grade them.

1) To have a girlfriend - BORDERLINE PASS
2) To start up a rock band - FAILED
3) To start up a Tokusatsu Club in NYP - FAILED
4) To NOT make any enemies this year - FAILED
5) To love somebody to the fullest - (??? Why did I write this for?)
6) To live life to the fullest - (??? Why did I write this for?)
7) To survive all 365 days of 2007 - (??? Why did I write this for?)

Anyway, if you want to know what my resolutions for 2008 are, you have to wait for 24 hours more!

Until then, see ya!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Season's Greetings

To all fellow people out there, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Anyway, Just feeling bored at the moment. Still NO PSP, NO PS3. I'm just an ordinary guy with ordianry stuff, but that's OK. At least I still have happiness.

OK, I'll stop here for now.

Will be back when I'm back.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Tagged once again! LOL!

Crap! I am tagged by my friend.

Oh well, might as well get it over and done with.

Would you prefer to..
[1] Lose a lover, or love a loser?
Ans: Love a loser, cause the loser will eventually be a winner!

[2] Smoke pot, or drink beer?
Ans: Drink Beer. That's what I do best!

[3] Run two miles straight, or walk eight miles?
Ans: Walk 8 miles while enjoying the view.

[4] Go to the beach, or have a milkshake?
Ans: Have milkshake.

[5] Laugh when nobody else is, or not laugh when everyone else is?
Ans: Laugh when nobody else is.

[6] Drink ten cans of soda at once, or never drink soda again?
Ans: Drink 10 cans of soda at once!

[7] Have your pants ripped, or get thrown in a trash can?
Ans: Pants ripped.

[8] Kiss someone you don’t like or, kiss someone who doesn’t like you?
Ans: KISS SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T LIKE ME! HAHAHA!

[9] Not take a bath for a week or, take a bath in a lake?
Ans: Take a bath in a lake.

[10] Be an only child or have five brothers?
Ans: Have five brothers, so can form the "Dragon 5"

[11] Cry in front of 5,000 strangers, or cry in front of your whole school?
Ans: Cry in front of 5000 strangers.

[12] Be able to rewind time or, see the future?
Ans: Rewind time.

[14] Die the day after the best day of your life, or live to be ninty?
Ans: Live to be ninety

[15] Go skydiving or, go scuba diving?
Ans: Skydiving!

[16] Be loved by one person, or have ten people who like you?
Ans: Be loved by one person

[17] Be fat and pretty or skinny and ugly?
Ans: Skinny and ugly. Cause I am one now.

[18] Love and lose or, never love at all?
Ans: Never love at all.

BASICS

Name: Adam Alucard "Akado" Yamada 「山田赤土」”アダム・アルカード”
High school: Henderson Secondary School
Elementary: Zhangde Primary School
Favorite drink: Root Beer
Favorite fruit: Apple
Favorite season: Winter
LAST Talked to: James
Shower: This afternoon.
Watched: The Golden Compass

HAVE YOU...

Ever cried over a girl/boy: Yes...

Been arrested: No, but I am the one doing the arresting!

Ever had a friend die: Yes.

Ever used a gun: Yes.

Ever finished a puzzle: Yes.

Ever got beaten up: Yes.

Ever hated someone: Yes.

Ever made a huge mistake: Yes.

Ever jogged a mile: Yes. In fact, more than that!

Ever broken someones heart: NO WAY!

NUMBERS

Favorite number(s): 1, 3, 6, 9, 15 and 24.

PICK ONE

Blue or Red?: Red

Spring or Autumn?: Spring

RANDOM

Do you speak any other language: Besides English and Malay, I speak Japanese, German and Russian.

Wanting to see someone?: Yes. And her name is サマンサ. Sorry, can't reveal her name in English. :P

How old do you look: I look like in my late 20s.

How old do you act: As if I'm having a mid-life crisis.

Do you have any pets?: Fishes

There will be a Bloody... err... White Christmas this year (I Hope)

To Ms. SOMEBODY named Aralc: Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, you fuck it away.

This year, to save me from bleeding, I WILL GIVE IT TO SOMEONE SPECIAL!

HAHAHA!

Still not very good at all...

I am still upset about my favourite band's disbandment.

It made me lose concentration on my common test papers.

I still couldn't get over it, while the others already have.

Why am I emotionally attached to them, even though I don't personally know them?

It is because of music. Their music drove me to learn more music than before.

It is because of them that I was able to re-embrace music in my life.

It is because of them that I was able to know the existence of music.

So, why must they be punished for the good deeds that they have done as a legitimate band?!

WHY? NAZE?!

なぜ?! なぜ?! なぜ?!

In time, I do hope that they will be able to continue, safely and healthily.

For now, I got to go. Tomorrow is the big day for me. EOY Anime@Expo is still on.

THE SHOW MUST GO ON!

From,
Alucard Yamada

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Endless Rain by X Japan

I'm walking in the rain
yuku ate mo naku kizutsuita karada nurashi
karamitsuku koori no zawameki
koroshi tsuzukete samayou itsu made mo
Until I can forget your love

nemuri wa mayaku tohou ni kureta
kokoro o shizuka ni tokasu
mai agaru ai o odorasete
furueru karada o kioku no bara ni tsutsumu
I keep my love for you to myself

* Endless rain, fall on my heart kokoro no kizu ni
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

It's a dream, I'm in love with you
madoromi dakishimete
* repeat
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over
koe ni naranai kotoba o kurikaeshite mo
takasugiru hai iro no kabe wasugi satta hi no
omoi o yume ni utsusu
Until I can forget you love
* repeat
Endless rain, let me stay
evermore in your heart
Let my heart take in your tears, take in your memories
* repeat

BeForU to Shut Down?! My goodness...

Seriously, this news is like WTF.

I can't believe that this band, of all bands, WHY MUST IT BE THEM?!

The truest of the true. The one band that had touched my heart (besides X Japan and Dream Theater).

THIS IS THE SHITS OF A LIFETIME!!!

Words can't describe how I am feeling right now.

No matter, I'll just have to explain it in a form of music.

I dedicate these songs to BeForU.

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Forever Love by X Japan

もう独りで歩けない
時代の風が強すぎて
Ah 傷つくことなんて
慣れたはず　だけど今は...

Ah このまま抱きしめて　
濡れたままの心を
変わり続けるこの時代に
変わらない愛があるなら

Will you hold my heart
涙　受け止めて
もう壊れそうなAll my heart

Forever Love Forever Dream
溢れる想いだけが
激しく　せつなく　時間を埋め尽くす
Oh, tell me why

All I see is blue in my heart

Will you stay with me
風が過ぎ去るまで
また溢れ出す All my tears

Forever Love Forever Dream
このままそばにいて
夜明けに震える心を抱きしめて
Oh Stay with me

Ah 全てが終ればいい
終わりのないこの夜に
Ah 失うものなんて
何もない 貴方 だけ

Forever Love Forever Dream
このままそばにいて
夜明けに震える心を抱きしめて

Ah Will you stay with me
風が過ぎ去るまで
もう誰よりもそばに

Forever Love Forever Dream
これ以上　歩けない
Oh Tell me why Oh Tell me true
教えて　生きる意味を

Forever Love Forever Dream
溢れる涙の中
輝く季節が　永遠に変わるまで
Forever Love


Translation:
I can't walk on my own any more
The winds of time are too strong
Ah, I should be used to
Getting hurt, but now...

Ah, just like this,
Hold my still damp heart
If unchanging love can exist
In these constantly changing times,

Will you hold my heart,
And catch my tears?
All my heart feels like it will break

Forever Love Forever Dream
Oh, tell me why
Only flowing emotions
Intensely and painfully fill these times

All I see is blue in my heart

Will you stay with me
As long as the wind blows?
All my tears overflow again

Forever Love Forever Dream
Stay by me, just like this
Holding my heart that shakes in the dawn
Oh stay with me

Ah, I wouldn't mind if everything were to end
In this night without end
Ah, I would lose nothing
All I have is you

Forever Love Forever Dream
Stay by me, just like this
Holding my heart that shakes in the dawn

Ah, will you stay with me
As long as the wind blows?
I don't want anyone else by my side

Forever Love Forever Dream
I can't walk any further
Oh, tell my why Oh, tell me true
Teach me the meaning of life

Forever Love Forever Dream
Within the flowing tears
Until the shining seasons change into eternity
Forever Love

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And one more song, above all:

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GRADUATION ~それぞれの明日~ by BeForU

キズついた時
あの泪もそっと薄れていった
振り返ればいつでも自分の居場所があったからかな?

歩いてゆこう
手を握ってそう
いつもそうだった　何があっても信じてた
まっすぐに見つめてた
遠い場所を…

互いに思いあう心があって
そして『信頼』(いみ)を持った
知らず知らずに助けられてた
深い絆(カタチ)だったから

何故か不思議なほど隠れてゆくの
辛かった記憶(こと)だけ
目に映るのは
素直になれた
心から笑えた記憶(こと)

勇気持とう
手を差し出そう！
いつもそう在りたい　これからずっと　信じたい
まっすぐに見つめてる
あの場所まで…

何があっても
諦めなくて
肩よせ合って
ひとつになって…

どんな時でも
必死になって
わからなくて
悩んで…

どれも大切なキヲク…だ・か・ら
かけがえのない　そんな日々を…
きっと忘れない
それぞれの未来(みち)　歩むとしても

歩いてゆこう
未来(あした)見つけよう
今から新しいスタート切って信じよう
まっすぐに　いつかの遠い未来(ばしょ)まで…

忘れないで…


Translation:
GRADUATION ~Respective Tomorrows~
The tears from the time I was hurt
have softly faded away
When I look back at that, could it have been because there was always a place I belonged?

Let’s walk
Like we’re holding hands
It’s always just like that, whatever happened, we had faith,
We looked straight ahead of us
To that faraway place…

Our hearts both had the same feelings
and we had “meaning” (”faith”)
We were unconsciously helped
Because of the deep bonds we had

Somehow our painful memories were
the only thing we kept mysteriously hidden.
Reflected in your eyes
Were the unaffected memories
Of when we laughed from our the bottom of our hearts

Let’s have courage
and hold out our hands!
It’s how we always wanted to be, from now until forever, wanting to believe
looking straight ahead
To that place…

Whatever happened,
not giving up,
putting our shoulders together,
becoming one…

Whatever time it was,
becoming desperate,
Not understanding,
Worrying…

They’re all my precious memories… so,
There’s no substitute for them, those days…
Are something I’ll surely never forget
Even as we walk down our own respective paths to the future

Let’s walk
Let’s search for tomorrow
Because now we’re starting anew, let’s believe
We’ll go straight ahead, until we get to that faraway place in the future someday…

Don’t forget….

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Anyway, I'll just stop here for now.

Don't want to end up destroying myself because of this.

So, see ya later.

Take care.

From,
Alucard Yamada

December Love

Well, I'm so gonna look forward to lots of things this month.

First and foremost, there will be EOY Anime@Expo on December 15th.

And yes, I do hope to have a date with someone special on Christmas Day.

And by the way, do look out for me as Satoshi a.k.a. Ash Ketchum, OK?

Alright, I'll stop here for now.

Looking forward to lots of things!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Something to wonder... again.

This is what I learnt from my dad: If you can't take care of reality, there is always fantasy to back you up!

Meaning: If you cannot do what you are given to do, there is always something to fall back on. Follow your dreams!

Let me explain.

I mean seriously, people in the workforce know that they just do their job for the sake of it. Most hated their current job. Some liked it. But no one loved it.

In my case, I am a college student. I know nothing about work life.

However, I do know that meritocracy SUCKS!

It sucks as to prevent US from studying what we need/desire.

Seriously, the education system here is so fucked up.

Well, anyway, at least I have something that I want to do in life. And that is in the entertainment business. Hopefully, be the first Health Scientist and Engineer Entrepreneur in the world.

Yup, those are my dreams. To help people and entertain people.

But first, I have to help myself.

So, see you guys later, alright?

From,
Adam Yamada

The Glass Is Half-Empty and Half-Full.

Yup, that's what the title says.

Today I wasn't bored, but I wasn't excited either.

Yup, I stayed home all day long.

And if you are asking why I am not at DEAFCON 7?

Well, the thing is that I do not have enough cash at the moment.

Ah crap! If only I had saved much more money, I would have went for it.

But it's ok. There will be next time (I hope).

So for now, I'm just studying.

Anyway, I have to stop here for now.

See you soon!

From,
Adam Yamada

Most problems resolved, but new ones showed up.

At least now I am ok.

At least most of them are being resolved.

But there are new problems that occured right at this moment.

Some of the users on YouTube are being "attacked" by Avex. I don't know how or why, but I have the feeling that History will repeat itself.

Anyway, got to go. Hope to see you soon!

Take care!

From,
Adam Yamada.

Something to ponder about: My Dream Nation

Taken from my post at Beautiful For U

"I would like a country with a utopian mindset.

Holidays: All existing holidays on Planet Earth.

Laws: Just follow the Ten Commandments.

Education: Anyone and everyone can study what they desire.

And yeah, No more fighting, no more military, no more hierachy.

Just pure democracy!"

Which Tarot Card am I?

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

A BIG THANK YOU FOR ALL THESE PEOPLE! YAY! V(^^)v

I would like to thank all these people who have helped me to get back on track:

-My family and friends
-The staff and members from Beautiful For U
-And all those involved.

And also, I would like to say a big FUCK YOU to these people:

-The some people from my ex-CCAs
-The so-called friends who now became my enemies


So, I end here for today.

Hope to see you soon!

Take care!

Gain a VICTORY!!!

From,
Adam Yamada

Wondering, Wandering, Whatever!

Well, I have a lot of thoughts lately.

I was thinking about my future.

And yeah, I do imagine stuff along the way.

How I am so hopelessly romantic at times.

It even creeps me out.

Well, anyway, I do hope that I could achieve my hopes and dreams and my goals in life.

PEACE(^^)v

From,
Adam Yamada

How's life for me?

Well, to be brutally honest, I am so excited!

I cannot wait for EOY Anime@Expo.

And also, there are LOTS to do, now that I have made new friends from Beautiful For U.

So, THAT will be my cyber hangout place.

And the you-know-which-site will no longer be the hangout place for now, until everything has subsided (hopefully).

Anyway, got to go now. Later having lesson at 1000 hours.

See you soon.

From,
Adam Yamada

Another Final Fantasy

Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?



Final Fantasy VII

NOOO!!! I GOT SEPHIROTH!!!!!

AHHHHH!!!!!!!

More of Final Fantasy!

Ok. This time, it's for FFX and FFX-2.





Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?



Final Fantasy VII





Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?



Final Fantasy VII

OMG! I cannot believe this! I got both TIDUS and YUNA?!

AHHHHH!

Which Final Fantasy character am I?

Alright. Done this twice. Once for FF8, the other for FF7.





Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?



Final Fantasy VII









Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?



Final Fantasy VII


My thoughts? I'm basically two-in-one. Ambitious and tough as well as cold and antisocial.

That's just me.

What comes around, goes around!

Haha! Today I damn happy man.

Heard of the saying "You do something bad, you will get retribution"?

Well, guess what?

Those people who offended me yesterday wee-hours of the morning have their plans' asses kicked!

Yes!

That means I won't be able to see them!

*Goes back to study*

Time to step up to the game!

It has been weeks to try to get a decent enough of cash to play music games in bulk.

While many people have more than enough amounts of money AND they have more than 700 skill points, some people (like me) are lagging behind VERY much, still with 380 skill points on DM, 180 skill points on GF, 70-something skill points on BM and just at Enjoy Lvl 19 for DDR.

Anyway, so far, just between me and my friends, I am basically a good all-rounder of music games.

Still, that doesn't prove anything if I:
1) Don't have enough time to play
2) Don't have enough cash to play
3) Don't have the resources to use.

So now, I am getting to a certain extent.

I will try my best to work hard in my studies, play hard in all games that I play, and get healthy and happy.

Bye now!

From,
Adam Yamada

Get to know myself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Verdict:
Almost all of them are true!

Hari Raya flashbacks

Every Hari Raya, we get the same old stuff, the same old things.

But what sets this Hari Raya apart from the others is that I feel more welcoming towards my family.

This is because everyone is more psyched up for the event. Everyone was just celebrating their hearts out.

But above all that, I realised what life is all about.

It's not just about family. It's about ourselves being this family.

Anyways, I got to go. I still have a lot of things to do.

Signing Out.

Until then, take care!

From,
Adam Yamada.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Yo! Wishing everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir & Batin.

HAHA! IN YOUR FACE!

Just a few games of DMGF V4 and look at what I have gotten.

However, there is A LOT of improvement needed.

Back in Action!

YES! FINALLY! I GET TO BE BACK IN SCHOOL!

(Oh great. here's another crazy semester.)

I challenge you to... PRIMAL RAGE!

This is getting more and more ridiculous!

Semester starts on OCTOBER 8, 2007!

But where is my fucking TIMETABLE?!

Seriously, NYP can really GoNDie!

Crap lah! How long must I suppose to wait for my freaking TIMETABLE?!

As I said, if I don't get the timetable BY 1800 hours today, YOU ARE TOAST, EDUCATIONAL SCUM!

I'm outta here!

(P.S. Sauron Conquers. Total Domination. Extinction.)
(Double P.S. MK Language Subtitle: Sauron Wins. Flawless Victory. FATALITY!)

M.I.A.: Missing In Action

It has been a full 24 hours, and still there is no sign of the fucking TIMETABLE!

What is going on, NYP?

Now, you guys fucking pull the commencement date to October 8th. Are you guys trying to be funny?!

Listen, no matter when the semester starts, IF I don't see my timetable by October 5th, 1800 hours, I will not entertain the week before HARI RAYA!

Seriously, you guys have no respect whatsoever towards those who are fasting their asses off.

Oh, I give up! You can do whatever you want.

On a serious note though, there is a crisis in Singapore not yet resolve.

Until then, I'll FINISH THEM!

Crappy Poly!

This fucks!

They say I will get my timetable by 4 Oct 2007. Take a look at the date NOW!

It is 4 Oct 2007! 1640 hrs! Still no sign of my !@#$%^&*() TIME TABLE!

Fuck lah NYP!

Where's your freakin' priority?!

Getting ready for the new semester --- NOT!

Yes! Tomorrow I will be getting my new time-table.

I wonder if the schedule this time fits perfectly or not.

Anyway, I don't feel like going back. Cause I know shit happens in poly.

But then again, I also have to be grateful for this opportunity that I'm having.

No one else is as fortunate or lucky.

Still, all I have to say is that I may be happy, but I am not satisfied.

From,
Adam Yamada

A Reflection

Lately I have been thinking.

Why does the world defiled by liars and hypocrites?

It only adds more insult to Earth's injuries. So, why do people still lie and cheat to get what they want?

This only saddens me even more.

Well, enough of rambling, time to get started on my way to victory!

Fun, Fun, Fun?

Well, it has been days since my butt kicked.

I just post this entry for fun.

You see, I am the type of guy who is laid-back as well as hard-hitting terror.

But the real me is the fun me.

Anyway, I might head on down to play some e-Amusement now and then. I just don't want to exceed 180 days without playing e-Amusement.

So, I got to go now. See ya later!

From,
Adam Yamada

Bored, so must find something to do.

I was thinking about something to do. Feeling kinda bored.

Later I will be meeting my friend at Altrex. And then maybe break fast at Bugis Junction.

After that, I dunno.

Anyway, got to go. Don't want to be late.

See ya.

From,
Adam Yamada.

Feeling crappy.

Yup, I am crapped up.

Crapped up about being kicked out of the final year project.

So now, I will study all the way.

Anyway, not all is lost. I still have the people's support and my self-confidence.


Don't worry. I am fine. Thank you. Have a nice day!

From,
Adam Yamada.

First Post

Finally! After years of tweaking the site, i finally manage to get this blog up and running. Next stop, Import.