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Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The Curse of "the Fool born in April (that's me)" strikes again!

For a moment, I thought that it would never happened again.

I WAS FUCKING WRONG!

It's just so happened that I was dumped again and again and again and again and again days before my birthday. Is this a fucking sign that I will never be able to move on in life?

To prove my theories correct, let me take you back to the past...

http://www.freewebs.com/latarite/myblog.htm?blogentryid=1441506


http://latarite.blogspot.com/2008/04/sad-and-angry-at-same-time.html

http://latarite.blogspot.com/2009/04/happy-21st-birthday-wtf.html

http://latarite.blogspot.com/2010/04/return-to-innocence.html

Sad to say that the curse went on since 2003.

Why is this so?

As I said, let me take you back to the distant past.

It all started in late 2001/ early 2002. I was a shy idiot. But at the same time, I was more into stuff that you would never associate me with. A life of violence and prejudice.

And then a girl two years older than me came into my life.

Her name is Angela.

She used to talk to me after school and even confessed to me. I was not aware of love then, because I never felt that way during those days when I always think that love was just a myth and it doesn't exist and all. But I was wrong.

In 2003, things started to turn for the worse, with her condition dwindling. By the time that I have realised that she had Leukemia, I was too late. I still remember the details of that fateful day...

It was my birthday. I brought gifts for her, as it was also her birthday. Before I could reach the hospital, she passed away. I was in shock. My heart sank as deep as Titanic.

I was devastated. From then on, life as I know it had gotten rougher and tougher.

However, it wasn't all dark and gritty. She woke me up from the nightmare that I was living in before I met her. She questioned me in a lot of aspects.

In fact, she was the first one that asked me this question: "Do you believe in God?"

That really changed my perspective.

From then on, I begin to immerse myself in her favourite hobbies, just to keep her memories alive. Example: cosplay, playing music especially on piano.

Truth to be told, she's interested in the arts and sciences. Her ambition is to help people, help society to learn how to love one another and accepting brotherhood. She wanted to be a nurse.

That's my distant past in a nutshell. I'm sure that most people find it ridiculous. Well, you can't blame them. I am an idiot myself.

All I ever wanted is to move on in life, to turn over a new leaf, and to continue where she left off.

That's why I have been trying to search for the one, again.

Anyway, I'm going to end this post with a song that I played every birthday.

The song is "April" by SPEED.

Enjoy.

Godspeed, everyone.



P.S. I love you all.