Seriously, it has never been happy. Not yet, anyway.
Thankfully, I'm having a day-off from the usual routine.
Without further ado, here are my plans for the "Lonely Birthday".
First up, go get my FREE meal at nEbO Hub.
Next, go to Ben & Jerry's to get me some FREE Ice Cream Cone.
Then, go get my FREE Birthday Play Value from Zone-X.
And maybe, just maybe, either watch a movie or sing karaoke. ALONE. Since nobody bothered to greet me "Happy Birthday" anyway.
That will be all for now.
From,
Akado Kogane
My Personality
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Reminiscing Primary School Life and My History
I am having some spare time today. Still working on major stuff in my life currently, but yeah, I decided to jot this down.
Anyway, I met up with my primary school friends in a small but memorable reunion dinner. That meeting seriously woke me up that I do have true friends back in the day. In fact, they are even more true than those typical local people. Enough of that. Story is too long and I want to keep this blog post short.
Looking back at my life, I do have my fair share of life from a "happy-go-lucky" guy to an "emo-driven with a vendetta" sort of guy and now "the hyper-romantic guy with a sense of discipline, justice and commitment".
In fact, the truth about me is that I am in the pursuit of the following:
Truth, Freedom, Beauty, Love, Courage, Hope and Peace.
While some of you think that I am childish and such, I am actually more experienced than anyone can ever imagine.
Try having these and live for 21 years with them:
-Avoidant personality disorder
-Schizoid personality disorder
-Autism spectrum disorders
I did and I must say I have win against the likes of those "normal people" who take their lives for granted. Even to the extent of taking what they like for granted. These people will never go far beyond the sun. Even if they have spent their whole lives on the things that they do best, they will not go far without compassion and wit.
The golden rule for those who want to deal with me, never ever make a lone wolf mad, for he is stronger, more aggressive and far more dangerous than the average wolf that is a member of a pack.
From,
Akado Kogane
Anyway, I met up with my primary school friends in a small but memorable reunion dinner. That meeting seriously woke me up that I do have true friends back in the day. In fact, they are even more true than those typical local people. Enough of that. Story is too long and I want to keep this blog post short.
Looking back at my life, I do have my fair share of life from a "happy-go-lucky" guy to an "emo-driven with a vendetta" sort of guy and now "the hyper-romantic guy with a sense of discipline, justice and commitment".
In fact, the truth about me is that I am in the pursuit of the following:
Truth, Freedom, Beauty, Love, Courage, Hope and Peace.
While some of you think that I am childish and such, I am actually more experienced than anyone can ever imagine.
Try having these and live for 21 years with them:
-Avoidant personality disorder
-Schizoid personality disorder
-Autism spectrum disorders
I did and I must say I have win against the likes of those "normal people" who take their lives for granted. Even to the extent of taking what they like for granted. These people will never go far beyond the sun. Even if they have spent their whole lives on the things that they do best, they will not go far without compassion and wit.
The golden rule for those who want to deal with me, never ever make a lone wolf mad, for he is stronger, more aggressive and far more dangerous than the average wolf that is a member of a pack.
From,
Akado Kogane
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
A Rant On The So-Called Friends (And Some Fanboy Issue)
Have you ever felt something like a dagger being thrusted into your back multiple times by multiple number of people? That's what exactly how I feel for the past few weeks.
To be honest and in good faith, this is starting to bother me too much.
If only I heeded that advice, that is to not to get too professionally involve with them, these trivial things wouldn't have happened.
I mean it when I say that I have regretted joining a community in which I am prepared to be a fan of.
Anyway, just a low-down on what my naive brain is registering for the community.
Firstly, it was a community that is made by fans for fans. Gradually, it became a stiff upper lip and starting to involve some professional aspects to it. And now, it became something in which I was not able to recognise anymore.
Where is the "for fans by fans" mindset gone to? Down the drain? Vanish into thin air?
Where is the love?
Now, my mind has really gotten a cruel wake-up call. And I have learnt it the hard way.
One could not count on a community forever.
So what if it is successful? Where was the passion that I used to recognise from them? Why are they evolving into workaholics who wants fame and fortune type of monsters?
As I type in this entry, I realised that one can't be a fanboy forever.
One has to think for themselves and one must make the ultimate sacrifice, even if it means having to give up the community in which he like to do the stuff that the community offers.
Now, don't take this personally, but I have no choice but to stop relying on the community for things that they will keep continuing to deny me of.
Looks like I have to take the other path instead.
-Finish NS
-Go for broke to study in a private university part-time (while juggling full-time work)
-Have enough money and documentations to get the f*** out of this place
-And then, settle down, have kids, work to build up a joint-venture
That will be all for now.
I apologise if I sounded harsh, but this is what I truly feel from the bottom of my heart.
From,
Akado Kogane
P.S. I don't hate you guys personally. I just hate what you guys have become. I no longer know what you guys are anymore.
To be honest and in good faith, this is starting to bother me too much.
If only I heeded that advice, that is to not to get too professionally involve with them, these trivial things wouldn't have happened.
I mean it when I say that I have regretted joining a community in which I am prepared to be a fan of.
Anyway, just a low-down on what my naive brain is registering for the community.
Firstly, it was a community that is made by fans for fans. Gradually, it became a stiff upper lip and starting to involve some professional aspects to it. And now, it became something in which I was not able to recognise anymore.
Where is the "for fans by fans" mindset gone to? Down the drain? Vanish into thin air?
Where is the love?
Now, my mind has really gotten a cruel wake-up call. And I have learnt it the hard way.
One could not count on a community forever.
So what if it is successful? Where was the passion that I used to recognise from them? Why are they evolving into workaholics who wants fame and fortune type of monsters?
As I type in this entry, I realised that one can't be a fanboy forever.
One has to think for themselves and one must make the ultimate sacrifice, even if it means having to give up the community in which he like to do the stuff that the community offers.
Now, don't take this personally, but I have no choice but to stop relying on the community for things that they will keep continuing to deny me of.
Looks like I have to take the other path instead.
-Finish NS
-Go for broke to study in a private university part-time (while juggling full-time work)
-Have enough money and documentations to get the f*** out of this place
-And then, settle down, have kids, work to build up a joint-venture
That will be all for now.
I apologise if I sounded harsh, but this is what I truly feel from the bottom of my heart.
From,
Akado Kogane
P.S. I don't hate you guys personally. I just hate what you guys have become. I no longer know what you guys are anymore.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
1 Month Done, 23 Months to Go!!
Yeah, it's been a month since I last wrote an entry.
Anyway, here it goes:
How's NS life so far? So-so.
At least I have learn so much during my time there.
And yeah, it is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to learn something new.
I know that it is a mundane way of putting things, but that's how I truly feel.
Now, on to the more important stuff:
My best friend (Taxman) is currently in a personal crisis at the moment. His dad has not been well recently and I hope that he could get well soon, for my friend's sake.
Please pray for safety.
That is all for now.
As for the rant on a few things, it will be on the next entry. I just don't want to pollute this entry.
And yeah, I do miss my Yunku-chan a lot. Love ya lots, dear!
From,
Akado Kogane
(previously known as Alucard Yamada)
Anyway, here it goes:
How's NS life so far? So-so.
At least I have learn so much during my time there.
And yeah, it is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to learn something new.
I know that it is a mundane way of putting things, but that's how I truly feel.
Now, on to the more important stuff:
My best friend (Taxman) is currently in a personal crisis at the moment. His dad has not been well recently and I hope that he could get well soon, for my friend's sake.
Please pray for safety.
That is all for now.
As for the rant on a few things, it will be on the next entry. I just don't want to pollute this entry.
And yeah, I do miss my Yunku-chan a lot. Love ya lots, dear!
From,
Akado Kogane
(previously known as Alucard Yamada)
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