Fighting for the wrong side??? And some humanitarian issues...

OK. This issue still bugs me then, and it continued bugging me now. But I won't dwell on it too much. I'm just taking a not-so-personal point of view.

Anyway, what was I promised? I was promised something by a company.

However, 3 months later:

What have I given? More work, more time, more play.

What did I receive? MORE BULLSHIT!

Seriously, this is already crossing the freaking line!

You know what? Majorities don't always win.

You may have 10 normal employees, but you are missing out on 1 who have gone through more bullshit than those 10.

I've had it with such hypocrites. They do not deserve a martial dignity of human beings.

As I said, this is not personal. This means business. And many businesses rise and fall just like that.

So I'm gonna end my rant here. Hope that some people can wake up their ideas and know about what on Earth is going on with the world.

The world is sick. It is up to us to fix it. No matter how small our contributions are. If each of ourselves help out bit by bit, there will be a difference.

It is time for a change, ladies and gentlemen.

As we all know it.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Operation: Disturbia

Well, this is it.

Why do I always feel that I could not trust people anymore?

I mean that some of my friends have crossed the line and involve my loved ones, my personal life, etc.

Seriously, I really can't stand people who gets on my nerves just because they find it funny.

Whatever it is, FUCK THAT SHIT!

I'm just so annoyed by some people that I will gladly play psychological games to them. Let those fuckers have a taste of their own medicine.

And yeah, one more thing.

Since the fucking when does playing soccer involves money?!

For fuck's sake, soccer IS A GAME AND WILL ALWAYS BE JUST A GAME!

Why do I need to pay for crappy miscellaneous fees?

Whatever it is, I vow that I am no longer involved in the team. EVER. FUCKING. AGAIN!

And yeah, another thing.

I am now feeling upset and angry.

So, If you DARE to cross the fucking line and involve my everything, you will be screwed. Until to the extreme that I'm gonna put MY foot in YOUR ass!!!

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. I'm feeling not too well recently, so forgive my crudeness.

Lesson learnt: A lone wolf will always be a lone wolf

Why is that?

Why do I have this curse?

Fuck luck! Fuck fortune!

Those two things never help me one bit.

And yeah, Fuck romance!

It's just a heartbreaker that feeds on lonely souls.

Seriously, no matter how hard I tried, no matter how much I change, it still is bloody the same!

What do they say? "Tis better to have love and lost than to never to have love at all"?!

Fuck that shit!

I'd rather not have love that is lost.

Cause you know why? It devastates me.

Seriously, it's not disease that ravages one's life. It's love.

And they say that it is a beautiful thing? FUCK THEM!

Tell me why does falling in love feels such a burden?

Why does it have to infect someone with hopes and dreams and be human, only to end up feeling heartbroken and soul shredded?

Crap!

Sad and Angry at the same time...

Yup, that's how I feel right now.

The girl that I have been chasing after for months, have fallen for another person.

And it really hurts me.

And of all time, why must it happen the week before my birthday.

But seriously, it matters if she realises my love for her or not.


Crap! Another week, and I will no longer be a teenager.

I will eventually touch the TWO-ZERO mark.

Yup, I will be 20!

SHEESH! WHAT A LAUGHINGSTOCK I HAVE BECOME!


Being 20 and STILL NO GIRLFRIEND!

WHAT A LOSER! WHAT AN IDIOT!

And worse, WHAT A PARASITE I HAVE BECOME!


Seriously, I have been wondering. Am I that parasitic in this world?

Am I a disease that people fear and disrespect?

What am I? WHO AM I?


Anyway, I just hope that she's happy. That's all that matters?

For now, yes.


But for me? I WILL BE FUCKING MISERABLE FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE!

AND THIS ISN'T A BLOODY PHASE THAT I'M GOING THROUGH!

NEVER IS AND NEVER WILL BE JUST A FUCKING PHASE!!!

WHY?


CAUSE I LOVE HER! I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART!

AND YEAH, IT'S MY FAULT FOR BEING A COWARD!

IT'S MY FAULT FOR NOT TELLING HER WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE TO!

IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!


FUCK!!!!!


Anyway, that's all of my rants for now.


Nothing can help me now. Nothing.


So, I just pray for her happiness.


And as for me? I want to be happy, but I can't.


But I will never give up. I will never surrender.


As long as I live, I will fight with honor.

As long as I fight, losing is not an option.

And as of now, my birthday wish will now be altered.


Over and out!


From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. Current mood: In an unrest. In a rush of panic. In a state of shock.

A Bloody Valentine's Day... Again.

Yup. That's what the title said.

Anyway, of all days, why is my shitty exam on this day.

FUCK! I can't even do the paper properly.

Shit. I'm so gonna "graduate early" from polytechnic.

Meanwhile, I am so idiotic.

I should have send that special someone a Valentine's Day greeting through e-mail instead of something else. Now I'm freaking pissed.

Oh well, at least it's not so bad. BUT I WAS WRONG!

Things got worse at home.

My sister used my computer without no good fucking permission. I mean, c'mon!

Anyway, enough ranting for today.

Ah fuck it! I go post at a different article.

A Retarded Day...

Alright, the day went pretty smoothly. Until retards in the MRT station did not bother to move their asses at the escalator, causing me to miss the MRT home.

Seriously, how fucking retard can things get? People these days have no initiative.

THE FUCKING ESCALATOR IN FRONT OF YOU HAS SPACE, DAMN IT! MOVE YOUR ASS!!

DON'T MAKE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN A HURRY, WAIT TO SAY FUCKING "EXCUSE ME" JUST TO GET TO THEIR RESPECTIVE TRAINS!

GET THIS IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD, RETARDS!!!