A Fork in the Road

Seriously, I'm not sure how to put this. But I'm now faced with a difficult decision.

Before my current girlfriend, there was this person that I have known beforehand. She was and still is a good friend. However, it took me 3 years to realize that I actually like this person as more than a friend.

I kept telling myself that it was all just an infatuation as I already am in a relationship. However, as time goes by, I could not let it slide no matter what. I really have feelings for her.

Maybe it's due to me being in such a situation and I only have myself to blame for all this.

Just to make things clear and proper, I still love my girlfriend and I would want to marry her.

But now, I really have to choose.

The catch is that I might not have enough time to come to the stand.

The illness that I'm currently having is gradually getting worse as I speak. And I do not want to rush myself solely because of this.

I cherish both of them.

I even can go far to say that I love my family, my relatives, my friends, and also strangers and enemies, for we are brothers and sisters of humanity.

Strangely, my past is catching up to me and it is haunting me as if it is happening now.

I don't want to live in fear anymore! I want to live with love, no matter how painful it is, I choose to love.

I am entitled to love and I will make full use of the opportunity to love.

To summarize, I really love my girlfriend and would like to marry her. Also, I like my friend as more than a friend. And above all, I must learn to love God.

From,
Adam Rick Taylor