Return to Innocence

Now, I know that I no longer talk about my personal stuff here anymore and all.

But this really need everyone's attention.

I know it is such short notice, but lately, I've been thinking.

With all my friends' problems, issues, and other personal matters keep being either unsolved and/or piling up just kept going, whether I like it or not, I have decided that it is best to help them as much as I can. Even if it means having me being back to my old self just to fulfil the task at hand.

This is because of some strange reason that I did not dare to raise. Even if I did, I knew that it would hurt other people's feelings. However, if I keep it enclosed for a fucking long time, I would suffer in silence in the end.

Anyway, just a re-cap of what is going on, here are the scenarios that is played in my mind.

Case 1: Forgotten Origins

"When you get the money, you get the power. When you get the power, you get the woman. When you get the woman, you forget your friends. Is that even worth fighting for? Is that even worth dying for? Think about it. Now you have lost the one who loves you the most, and he's not coming back to you anymore!"

Case 2: Platonic Dilemma

"After all these years that I have been searching, the one has been right in front of me this whole time and it took me 3 years to realise it? Seriously, what am I going to do?"

Whatever it is, I do hope that I have the courage to face up to Case 2. As for Case 1, it is a Cold Case.

That is all for now.

A little something to lighten up my mood

This song really lifts up my spirit even higher!

Recalling a quote that I have learnt.

The year 2009 have really reinforced what I have said three years ago.

This quote was made from May 2006.

"When I need something, even if I do not want it, I will fight for it. When I want something, but no longer need it, I will let it go."

What I need:
truth, freedom, beauty, love, courage, hope and peace. These seven qualities of life kept me going.

What I want:
chastity, temperance, charity, diligence, patience, kindness, humility.

What drives you humans to live on?
lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride.

Think about it.

As long as there are people who think that life is a game, these mindsets will never change.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY? WTF!

Seriously, it has never been happy. Not yet, anyway.

Thankfully, I'm having a day-off from the usual routine.

Without further ado, here are my plans for the "Lonely Birthday".

First up, go get my FREE meal at nEbO Hub.

Next, go to Ben & Jerry's to get me some FREE Ice Cream Cone.

Then, go get my FREE Birthday Play Value from Zone-X.

And maybe, just maybe, either watch a movie or sing karaoke. ALONE. Since nobody bothered to greet me "Happy Birthday" anyway.

That will be all for now.

From,
Akado Kogane

Reminiscing Primary School Life and My History

I am having some spare time today. Still working on major stuff in my life currently, but yeah, I decided to jot this down.

Anyway, I met up with my primary school friends in a small but memorable reunion dinner. That meeting seriously woke me up that I do have true friends back in the day. In fact, they are even more true than those typical local people. Enough of that. Story is too long and I want to keep this blog post short.

Looking back at my life, I do have my fair share of life from a "happy-go-lucky" guy to an "emo-driven with a vendetta" sort of guy and now "the hyper-romantic guy with a sense of discipline, justice and commitment".

In fact, the truth about me is that I am in the pursuit of the following:
Truth, Freedom, Beauty, Love, Courage, Hope and Peace.

While some of you think that I am childish and such, I am actually more experienced than anyone can ever imagine.

Try having these and live for 21 years with them:
-Avoidant personality disorder
-Schizoid personality disorder
-Autism spectrum disorders

I did and I must say I have win against the likes of those "normal people" who take their lives for granted. Even to the extent of taking what they like for granted. These people will never go far beyond the sun. Even if they have spent their whole lives on the things that they do best, they will not go far without compassion and wit.

The golden rule for those who want to deal with me, never ever make a lone wolf mad, for he is stronger, more aggressive and far more dangerous than the average wolf that is a member of a pack.

From,
Akado Kogane