The Latarite Blog

The Curse of "the Fool born in April (that's me)" strikes again!

2011-04-20T02:28:00.003+08:00

For a moment, I thought that it would never happened again.

I WAS FUCKING WRONG!

It's just so happened that I was dumped again and again and again and again and again days before my birthday. Is this a fucking sign that I will never be able to move on in life?

To prove my theories correct, let me take you back to the past...

http://www.freewebs.com/latarite/myblog.htm?blogentryid=1441506

http://latarite.blogspot.com/2008/04/sad-and-angry-at-same-time.html

http://latarite.blogspot.com/2009/04/happy-21st-birthday-wtf.html

http://latarite.blogspot.com/2010/04/return-to-innocence.html

Sad to say that the curse went on since 2003.

Why is this so?

As I said, let me take you back to the distant past.

It all started in late 2001/ early 2002. I was a shy idiot. But at the same time, I was more into stuff that you would never associate me with. A life of violence and prejudice.

And then a girl two years older than me came into my life.

Her name is Angela.

She used to talk to me after school and even confessed to me. I was not aware of love then, because I never felt that way during those days when I always think that love was just a myth and it doesn't exist and all. But I was wrong.

In 2003, things started to turn for the worse, with her condition dwindling. By the time that I have realised that she had Leukemia, I was too late. I still remember the details of that fateful day...

It was my birthday. I brought gifts for her, as it was also her birthday. Before I could reach the hospital, she passed away. I was in shock. My heart sank as deep as Titanic.

I was devastated. From then on, life as I know it had gotten rougher and tougher.

However, it wasn't all dark and gritty. She woke me up from the nightmare that I was living in before I met her. She questioned me in a lot of aspects.

In fact, she was the first one that asked me this question: "Do you believe in God?"

That really changed my perspective.

From then on, I begin to immerse myself in her favourite hobbies, just to keep her memories alive. Example: cosplay, playing music especially on piano.

Truth to be told, she's interested in the arts and sciences. Her ambition is to help people, help society to learn how to love one another and accepting brotherhood. She wanted to be a nurse.

That's my distant past in a nutshell. I'm sure that most people find it ridiculous. Well, you can't blame them. I am an idiot myself.

All I ever wanted is to move on in life, to turn over a new leaf, and to continue where she left off.

That's why I have been trying to search for the one, again.

Anyway, I'm going to end this post with a song that I played every birthday.

The song is "April" by SPEED.

Enjoy.

Godspeed, everyone.

P.S. I love you all.

I'n not the bad guy...

2010-10-31T07:52:00.002+08:00

I am difficult to deal with, but I am easy going.
I am evil, but I am also good.
I am ill, but I want to stay healthy.
I am weak, but I force myself to be strong.
I am selfish because I want to protect those that I love.
I am greedy but I will never be gullible.
I am jealous that you have other people at your becking call whereas I don't.
I am always labeled as the bad guy, but all I want is to be a good guy.

Seriously, what did I ever do to deserve this?

You said that I'm a nice person. Why can't you be nice to me for a change?

Instead, you pushed me away when I needed you the most. You even told me to leave you alone.

Was I wrong to trust you? Was I wrong to care about you?

Seriously, why have you abandon me...

Dear God...

2010-09-05T22:50:00.002+08:00

I prayed every single day for you to forgive me for all my sins, whether it is intentional or unintentional.

I also prayed that I have the strength and courage to keep moving forward in life.

I also prayed that I could make a positive difference in the lives of the people that I met.

I even prayed that I could love anyone and everyone despite what the people have done to me.

I also prayed that I will no longer live in fear and hatred. Instead, to embrace a life of love and compassion.

I know that I'm just a man.

All I ever wanted is to keep the faith.

But I cannot do this alone.

I need to settle down because I am sick and tired of all the violence and animosity that I have gone through. In fact, I have lost someone special in 2003 due to me being careless and indecisive.

I have already atone for all my mistakes. Why give me more challenges? Why give me more tests?

I know You love me. I know that You care for me.

The thing is why people cannot do the same is beyond my understanding.

Anyway, I still believe in an Act of Random Kindness.

From,
Adam Rick Taylor

History has repeated itself, over and over again...

2010-09-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

Do you know what is frustrating?

It saddens me that the people that I have known as friends for a long time have betrayed me, one way or the other.

The thing is that I do not even know what wrong I have done or what evil I have committed.

All I ever do is try to be there for them, lend them a helping hand and always be there for them no matter what happens, good or bad, we all have to help each other.

Instead of the "give and you shall receive", I get a rapier being stabbed in my back and through my heart.

Tell me, is it a sin to love one another, accepting siblinghood?

WHERE IS THE LOVE?

All I ever wanted is for me to live a healthy and happy life. Is that so much to as for?

Anyway, I do hope that I have the courage to face the future.

And I also prayed to God that they, especially someone, will still be my friends. No matter how, no matter what. I just want to love them and not fear them.

Hope this message come across with open arms and open heart.

From,
Adam Rick Taylor

Just a simple humanitarian issue

2010-09-05T12:31:00.003+08:00

The moment one hates a human being is the moment one kills a human being.

Renewed Fantasy

2010-08-31T23:08:00.004+08:00

OK! I have officially moved on from that ordeal.

And I promised that I will work towards settling down with the most wonderful person that I have known. My one and only Charlynn also known as Arisa Gold.

Anyway, here's something that I wanted to share for quite some time now.

So, enjoy!

English Version is right here: http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm6338720

P.S.

I LOVE YOU, CHARLYNN!

From,
Adam Rick Taylor

A Fork in the Road

2010-08-22T23:08:00.006+08:00

Seriously, I'm not sure how to put this. But I'm now faced with a difficult decision.

Before my current girlfriend, there was this person that I have known beforehand. She was and still is a good friend. However, it took me 3 years to realize that I actually like this person as more than a friend.

I kept telling myself that it was all just an infatuation as I already am in a relationship. However, as time goes by, I could not let it slide no matter what. I really have feelings for her.

Maybe it's due to me being in such a situation and I only have myself to blame for all this.

Just to make things clear and proper, I still love my girlfriend and I would want to marry her.

But now, I really have to choose.

The catch is that I might not have enough time to come to the stand.

The illness that I'm currently having is gradually getting worse as I speak. And I do not want to rush myself solely because of this.

I cherish both of them.

I even can go far to say that I love my family, my relatives, my friends, and also strangers and enemies, for we are brothers and sisters of humanity.

Strangely, my past is catching up to me and it is haunting me as if it is happening now.

I don't want to live in fear anymore! I want to live with love, no matter how painful it is, I choose to love.

I am entitled to love and I will make full use of the opportunity to love.

To summarize, I really love my girlfriend and would like to marry her. Also, I like my friend as more than a friend. And above all, I must learn to love God.

From,
Adam Rick Taylor

Return to Innocence

2010-04-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

Now, I know that I no longer talk about my personal stuff here anymore and all.

But this really need everyone's attention.

I know it is such short notice, but lately, I've been thinking.

With all my friends' problems, issues, and other personal matters keep being either unsolved and/or piling up just kept going, whether I like it or not, I have decided that it is best to help them as much as I can. Even if it means having me being back to my old self just to fulfil the task at hand.

This is because of some strange reason that I did not dare to raise. Even if I did, I knew that it would hurt other people's feelings. However, if I keep it enclosed for a fucking long time, I would suffer in silence in the end.

Anyway, just a re-cap of what is going on, here are the scenarios that is played in my mind.

Case 1: Forgotten Origins

"When you get the money, you get the power. When you get the power, you get the woman. When you get the woman, you forget your friends. Is that even worth fighting for? Is that even worth dying for? Think about it. Now you have lost the one who loves you the most, and he's not coming back to you anymore!"

Case 2: Platonic Dilemma

"After all these years that I have been searching, the one has been right in front of me this whole time and it took me 3 years to realise it? Seriously, what am I going to do?"

Whatever it is, I do hope that I have the courage to face up to Case 2. As for Case 1, it is a Cold Case.

That is all for now.

A little something to lighten up my mood

2009-06-25T22:20:00.003+08:00

This song really lifts up my spirit even higher!

Recalling a quote that I have learnt.

2009-05-02T13:34:00.002+08:00

The year 2009 have really reinforced what I have said three years ago.

This quote was made from May 2006.

"When I need something, even if I do not want it, I will fight for it. When I want something, but no longer need it, I will let it go."

What I need:
truth, freedom, beauty, love, courage, hope and peace. These seven qualities of life kept me going.

What I want:
chastity, temperance, charity, diligence, patience, kindness, humility.

What drives you humans to live on?
lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride.

Think about it.

As long as there are people who think that life is a game, these mindsets will never change.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY? WTF!

2009-04-21T00:05:00.002+08:00

Seriously, it has never been happy. Not yet, anyway.

Thankfully, I'm having a day-off from the usual routine.

Without further ado, here are my plans for the "Lonely Birthday".

First up, go get my FREE meal at nEbO Hub.

Next, go to Ben & Jerry's to get me some FREE Ice Cream Cone.

Then, go get my FREE Birthday Play Value from Zone-X.

And maybe, just maybe, either watch a movie or sing karaoke. ALONE. Since nobody bothered to greet me "Happy Birthday" anyway.

That will be all for now.

From,
Akado Kogane

Reminiscing Primary School Life and My History

2009-04-18T16:42:00.002+08:00

I am having some spare time today. Still working on major stuff in my life currently, but yeah, I decided to jot this down.

Anyway, I met up with my primary school friends in a small but memorable reunion dinner. That meeting seriously woke me up that I do have true friends back in the day. In fact, they are even more true than those typical local people. Enough of that. Story is too long and I want to keep this blog post short.

Looking back at my life, I do have my fair share of life from a "happy-go-lucky" guy to an "emo-driven with a vendetta" sort of guy and now "the hyper-romantic guy with a sense of discipline, justice and commitment".

In fact, the truth about me is that I am in the pursuit of the following:
Truth, Freedom, Beauty, Love, Courage, Hope and Peace.

While some of you think that I am childish and such, I am actually more experienced than anyone can ever imagine.

Try having these and live for 21 years with them:
-Avoidant personality disorder
-Schizoid personality disorder
-Autism spectrum disorders

I did and I must say I have win against the likes of those "normal people" who take their lives for granted. Even to the extent of taking what they like for granted. These people will never go far beyond the sun. Even if they have spent their whole lives on the things that they do best, they will not go far without compassion and wit.

The golden rule for those who want to deal with me, never ever make a lone wolf mad, for he is stronger, more aggressive and far more dangerous than the average wolf that is a member of a pack.

From,
Akado Kogane

A Rant On The So-Called Friends (And Some Fanboy Issue)

2009-04-14T00:26:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt something like a dagger being thrusted into your back multiple times by multiple number of people? That's what exactly how I feel for the past few weeks.

To be honest and in good faith, this is starting to bother me too much.

If only I heeded that advice, that is to not to get too professionally involve with them, these trivial things wouldn't have happened.

I mean it when I say that I have regretted joining a community in which I am prepared to be a fan of.

Anyway, just a low-down on what my naive brain is registering for the community.

Firstly, it was a community that is made by fans for fans. Gradually, it became a stiff upper lip and starting to involve some professional aspects to it. And now, it became something in which I was not able to recognise anymore.

Where is the "for fans by fans" mindset gone to? Down the drain? Vanish into thin air?

Where is the love?

Now, my mind has really gotten a cruel wake-up call. And I have learnt it the hard way.

One could not count on a community forever.

So what if it is successful? Where was the passion that I used to recognise from them? Why are they evolving into workaholics who wants fame and fortune type of monsters?

As I type in this entry, I realised that one can't be a fanboy forever.

One has to think for themselves and one must make the ultimate sacrifice, even if it means having to give up the community in which he like to do the stuff that the community offers.

Now, don't take this personally, but I have no choice but to stop relying on the community for things that they will keep continuing to deny me of.

Looks like I have to take the other path instead.

-Finish NS
-Go for broke to study in a private university part-time (while juggling full-time work)
-Have enough money and documentations to get the f*** out of this place
-And then, settle down, have kids, work to build up a joint-venture

That will be all for now.

I apologise if I sounded harsh, but this is what I truly feel from the bottom of my heart.

From,
Akado Kogane

P.S. I don't hate you guys personally. I just hate what you guys have become. I no longer know what you guys are anymore.

1 Month Done, 23 Months to Go!!

2009-04-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah, it's been a month since I last wrote an entry.

Anyway, here it goes:

How's NS life so far? So-so.

At least I have learn so much during my time there.

And yeah, it is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to learn something new.

I know that it is a mundane way of putting things, but that's how I truly feel.

Now, on to the more important stuff:

My best friend (Taxman) is currently in a personal crisis at the moment. His dad has not been well recently and I hope that he could get well soon, for my friend's sake.

Please pray for safety.

That is all for now.

As for the rant on a few things, it will be on the next entry. I just don't want to pollute this entry.

And yeah, I do miss my Yunku-chan a lot. Love ya lots, dear!

From,
Akado Kogane
(previously known as Alucard Yamada)

Home Sweet Home, I will miss you...

2009-03-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

It will be about 35 hours to enlistment as I key in this entry.

First thing I would like to say is, THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN!

And yeah, I love you, my little Yunku-chan!

The second thing that I would like to say is that, I would definitely miss being a civilian for 2 years.

And one more thing, the Music Corner will be on a long HIATUS.

Don't worry, I still have a song up for dedication.

It is such a beautiful song.

Hope that you can enjoy it.

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. Here's the song:

Enjoy.

Vampire Name Generator

2009-03-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

I found something interesting, thanks to my Yunku-chan!

Anyway, here it goes:

http://www.emmadavies.net/vampire/

1st Name: Adam Ali

The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity:
Jack Raven
Known in some parts of the world as:
Belatucadrus of The Flesh
The Great Archives Record:
A sensual one who knows the flesh - and knows the blood.

2nd Name: Akado Yamada

The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity:
Armand Bourignon
Known in some parts of the world as:
Mazal Tov of Wallachia
The Great Archives Record:
Died and rose again in the name of eternal love.

3rd Name: Jake Cena

The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity:
Uriel Arnauld
Known in some parts of the world as:
Zeus of The Steely Moon
The Great Archives Record:
A child of the Moon Goddess - Cold, determined, but of the light in the night.

4th Name: Rick Taylor

The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity:
Will Pope
Known in some parts of the world as:
Seducer of Seducers
The Great Archives Record:
Beautiful and alluring - hiding great power, great danger.

5th Name: Alucard Yamada

The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity:
Armand Bourignon
Known in some parts of the world as:
Mazal Tov of The Flesh
The Great Archives Record:
A sensual one who knows the flesh - and knows the blood.

WOW! True for all for some reason.

Rough but good week

2009-03-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

OK!

The photoshoot is completed.

The Gundam Movie Marathon is attended.

And now, just some updates regarding what I do during the week.

Just recently completed "BioHazard: Gun Survivor" on the PS1.

I might do a review on it.

And here's the pictorial proof of my hard work:

Rank B with no continues.

I know I suck, but who cares? It's just a game.

Anyway, that is all for now.

From,
Alucard Yamada

My Character's Theme Song

2009-02-25T01:38:00.004+08:00

YES! YES!

I have finally selected a suitable song for my character, Rick Taylor (Rider 1).

Just in case you were wondering who is Rick Taylor:

Profile of Rider 1
Portrayed by Akado Yamada

NAME (OFFICIAL): Rick Taylor
MODE OF COMBAT: Tae-Kwon-Do and Boxing
BIRTHDAY: April 21st 1988
HEIGHT: 5'8" (173 cm)
WEIGHT: 140 lbs (64 kg)
BLOOD TYPE: Unknown
MEASUREMENTS: Unknown
BIRTHPLACE: Singapore
HOBBY: Playing music
PERSONAL TREASURES: His lifelong love interest (Yunku Sakuranbo), his motorcycle (Cyclone I)
FAVORITE FOOD: Fried Rice
DISLIKES: Humans
FORTE IN SPORTS: Soccer and Basketball

And here's the PV of the song.

If you want to watch it, simply pause the music corner to enjoy the video in proper.

Thanks.

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. The song is "GHOST" by Gackt

Minor Updates

2009-02-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

Alright, I have made some changes to my blog.

And yeah, I will do more activities over the week.

At least I won't be so bored as the previous weeks.

And yeah, enlistment is a few weeks away! I'm so nervous.

That will be all for now.

From,
Alucard Yamada

I'm on a roll!

2009-02-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

YES! YES!

I know this is old news, but I am now guaranteed to start up my own music production.

But before I can be an independent one, I'll have to make sure that I play my part for the forums that I am currently in.

That will be all for now.

From,
Alucard Yamada

However...

2009-02-08T01:20:00.005+08:00

I just got the letter for National Service.

So, I will be enlisting sooner than expected.

That is the bad news.

The good news is that I will still make room for plans ahead.

I really need to prioritize myself and my loved ones in order to achieve more value.

So, that's about it.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Wishing for a late intake

2009-02-05T15:17:00.003+08:00

Hi guys, long time no talk.

Just some minor update regarding a few things.

First of all, I know the time range for my enlistment.

Hopefully I get a late intake. The reasons will be unknown for now.

So, see you later!

Take care!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Fighting for the wrong side??? And some humanitarian issues...

2009-01-17T02:29:00.004+08:00

OK. This issue still bugs me then, and it continued bugging me now. But I won't dwell on it too much. I'm just taking a not-so-personal point of view.

Anyway, what was I promised? I was promised something by a company.

However, 3 months later:

What have I given? More work, more time, more play.

What did I receive? MORE BULLSHIT!

Seriously, this is already crossing the freaking line!

You know what? Majorities don't always win.

You may have 10 normal employees, but you are missing out on 1 who have gone through more bullshit than those 10.

I've had it with such hypocrites. They do not deserve a martial dignity of human beings.

As I said, this is not personal. This means business. And many businesses rise and fall just like that.

So I'm gonna end my rant here. Hope that some people can wake up their ideas and know about what on Earth is going on with the world.

The world is sick. It is up to us to fix it. No matter how small our contributions are. If each of ourselves help out bit by bit, there will be a difference.

It is time for a change, ladies and gentlemen.

As we all know it.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Hope For The Future

2009-01-06T01:26:00.003+08:00

Yeah, hopefully I will get the job.

Seriously, I need to get started on a decent job. I can't be seen lazing around all day. It's time I need to do something about my own welfare.

Anyway, I've recently dug up good games to play. I might be reviewing the games for "The Ultimate Media Freak". It's high time I should add game reviews to the blog.

So, this is it.

Hope you have a good 2009.

From,
Alucard Yamada

My First Blunder of 2009!

2009-01-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

Crap! Just when I thought it wouldn't happen again.

And so it did!

How I am so careless as to let myself sleep through a conversation again!

Things like this normally doesn't happen. But it happened when I just get to give some encouragement to Yunku-chan.

I'm so sorry, Yunku-chan. I'll be even more careful next time. I'll try my best to stay up more.

Love,
Alucard Yamada
a.k.a. Akado-kun

...2009 begins with a BANG!

2009-01-01T16:55:00.007+08:00

OK! Let's all start with a big bang for the year 2009! YAY!

Here's TWILIGHT BLADE Opening

Anyway, going on topic, here's some of my new year resolutions for the year 2009!

1) REALLY Need to buck up on my social life.
2) Have my girlfriend to visit Singapore soon.
3) Survive National Service in one piece.
4) REALLY Maintain my friendships with people.
5) Manage my own music production.
6) Complete "爆走戦隊 DASHRANGER" and "仮面ライダー軍隊" (written form) by end of 2009
7) Get to cosplay as the following characters for that year:
a) Superboy (Teen Titans)
b) Ryu (Street Fighter)
c) Seiya (Saint Seiya)

And yeah, as for the video issues, I might have to change my video service to another. IF YouTube decides to do such stunt again!

That is all for now. Have a happy and safe 2009!

From,
Alucard Yamada

As 2008 draws to a close...

2008-12-31T11:40:00.003+08:00

Alright, this is it.

My thoughts on how this year was the most unpredictable year imaginable.

I don't even know where to start!

But before I continue, let me review on my resolution status.

1) Need to buck up on my social life. BORDERLINE
2) Have someone to be my girlfriend. PASS
3) Get an ideal job, prefer night shift. FAIL
4) Maintain my friendships with people. BORDERLINE
5) MUST. START. ROCK BAND! FAIL

And as for my new year resolution for 2009?

I'll post it tomorrow!

Anyway, since I'm not good with words, here's a pictorial summary of the year 2008!

Good Times!

2008-12-18T21:52:00.002+08:00

What a good day for me today!

Twilight movie was good.

A meal at Burger King was good.

Everything today was good.

Yeah, that pretty much sums it up.

And do check out for The Ultimate Media Freak!

Twilight review is up next!

From,
Alucard Yamada

My thoughts for now

2008-12-15T22:54:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm still having the hype of EOY Anime@Expo 2008. So, I'm still itching to go on for another adventure.

Christmas is around the corner. Hopefully, everything is running smoothly for everyone here and there.

And yeah, I've just updated my "Ultimate Media Freak".

Go check it out!

From,
Alucard Yamada

A few more hours to EOY Anime@Expo 2008!

2008-12-12T14:40:00.003+08:00

Seriously, this is the event of a lifetime, whereby the theme for this year's EOY Anime@Expo is RETRO!

Finally! After all the hard work being put in this, we get a chance to cosplay as Anime and Manga characters from the 60s, the 70s, the 80s, and even the 90s.

As for me, I'll be cosplaying as Kenshiro from Hokuto No Ken, also known as, Fist of the North Star.

So, I'm looking forward to meeting you guys later!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Trip to AFA 08 (Delayed Post)

2008-11-29T22:20:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the late update.

I was busy with life, as you know it.

Anyway, here are the photos from AFA 08

That is all for now.

Taste of things to come - PART 2

2008-11-18T03:45:00.003+08:00

OK! This is it.

This December, there will be a Christmas single by yours truly.

Three songs are confirmed to be inside this single. (Actually, there are 4. It's just that two of them are just the same song. Only that they are in different languages.)

So, here it goes!

Tracklist (more or less confirmed):
1) 12月の Love Song (英語版) [December Love Song]
2) 愛は勝つ [Ai wa Katsu]
3) Angel Song ~イヴの鐘~ [Angel Song ~EVE no kane~]
4) 十二月的情歌 [Shi Er Yue De Qing Ge]

Look out for more details soon.

山田赤土 - 12月の愛

[Akado Yamada - December Love]

Coming soon to beat+WINGS

Taste of things to come...

2008-11-14T15:57:00.003+08:00

This week, I will be very busy wit lots of stuff, so I'm not going to go out often.

Recently, I have houseguests at home. Sorry about that.

Anyway, I'm so excited!

Anime Festival Asia 2008 is coming soon!

And yeah, there will be more activities coming soon.

Both in real life and the internet.

So, all the best and good luck!!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Happy Birthday, Darling Yunku-chan!

2008-11-01T21:51:00.001+08:00

To my little Yunku-chan,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
誕生日おめでとう!
Selamat Hari Lahir!
Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!
С днем рождения!

May all your dreams come true!

And more good years ahead!

Yunku-chan, where are you?!

2008-10-22T16:14:00.003+08:00

Everything has been resolved in a professional way.

Apologies will be made.

I have been reinstated.

However, I'm still not happy.

In fact, even if I have the riches of the world, nothing can make me happier.

In a nutshell: I want my little Yunku-chan!

Yunku-chan, if you are reading this, please come back...

I... can't... take... this... solitary confinement... ANYMORE!

I STILL LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

I HAVE BEEN DUPED!!! HELP!!!!!

2008-10-21T23:13:00.003+08:00

Seriously, this have gotten out of hand!

Now both sides are fighting the war and they are using me to be a tool of war!

What is wrong with these people?!

If you want to start a war, don't do it on me and my loved ones' expense.

Both sides are making me detest the both of you.

So, if there is such thing one more time, I will manhandle the both of you.

The both of you guys, please stop this war right now!

I mean it!

Anyone who DARES to mess with me shall be destroyed!

In Another News!

2008-10-20T01:45:00.002+08:00

I just got a copy of a DVD.

"Masters of the Universe" starring Dolph Lundgren.

I have been waiting to watch this for quite some time. And yeah, I am an avid fan of "He-Man and the Masters of the Universe".

If you don't know what that show is, you ought to be ashamed of yourselves.

This is one of the best cartoons of the 80s.

I enjoyed watching it as a kid, and I still like watching it now.

And yeah, I'm planning to cosplay as Prince Adam a.k.a. He-Man for the year 2012.

Hopefully my plans go according to plan.

From,
Alucard Yamada

The War Has Begun!

2008-10-20T01:39:00.002+08:00

Alright! This is getting insane!

Those bastards have strike again!

This time, at one of my usual hangouts!

Those bastards really deserve retribution!

If I take this any longer, my anger will consume me to damnation!

Seriously, why can't they suffer right now?!

Those losers have no right to ruin my love life!

Those bastards must pay!

They shall pay with their lives!

Finally! There's something better to do.

2008-10-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Recently got a copy of "Akumajou Dracula X Chronicle Original Soundtrack".

Been listening to it for some time now. Will do a review when I have the time.

So, for now, I'm just chilling out till I can collect my papers.

And then, it's on to the "real world".

From,
Alucard Yamada

REBUTTAL TIME!

2008-10-06T15:08:00.006+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

So, you want to play the "Real World" ah?

Well, guess what? Meritocracy is shit!

The true form of a good governance is both democracy and communism.

Go ahead, flame me all you want. You will never win. Trust me.

And yeah, who cares about working UNDER people these days. In this day and age, people would want to harbor the spirit of entrepreneurship. Who would want to slug it out for 20 years in a fucking job?!

And one more thing:

HEY CIVILIAN!

YOU better REVIVE YOUR BLOODY IDEA OK!?!

"You adjust to the squad and not the squad adjust to you?" FUCK YOU!

You know what is "Never leave a man behind?"

NEVER LEAVE A MAN BEHIND UNDERSTAND?! FUCKTARD! ASSHOLE! CHEEBYE!

Idiots Who do Nothing But Ruin Other People's Life!

2008-10-05T02:47:00.002+08:00

Welcome to your doom!

Some of you guys have earned a spot in a revived list of "My Rivals".

Want to know who you are? Don't bother.

Seriously, you guys deserve no respect whatsoever. So what if I respect you all? I don't give a damn now.

Remember the saying "Respect is to be earned"? Well, have you reflected those words unto yourselves? No? Then FUCK YOU!

You only deserve a thing called Karma.

You do bad things to me, bad things will happen to you.

And I guarantee it that it will be a vicious cycle that will end up in a lose-lose situation.

But no. I'm not that low to do that. Instead, I will leave you guys alone, so that you guys can go fuck yourselves. I don't care anymore.

That clearly means that you need not care about me anymore. So, don't bother talking to me about trivial stuff.

If you still want to drill your so-called advices, I must say that you have clearly not seen things from another angle.

Anyway, if I see any of you retards getting on my nerves again, I will take action.

Saya akan ambil tindakan!

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. Why throw rocks on other people's rice?! Why can't we just live and let live?!

Selamat Hari Raya!

2008-09-30T17:47:00.004+08:00

Since tomorrow is Hari Raya,

I, Alucard Yamada, would like to wish you all:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

The SEME or UKE Test

2008-09-30T17:47:00.001+08:00

You are a Don't Fuck With Me Seme!

Serious and to the point, and sometimes bordering on the sadistic, it takes a special breed of uke to satisfy your needs. You tend to be anti-social with little patience for most people. You need someone to challenge you and push you to your limits, and then be able to take your intense reactions, which possibly involves rope and sensual torture. This is what makes the Badass Uke the yin for your yang, as you're the only one able to put them in line and satisfy each other.

Most compatible with: Badass Uke

Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke, Innocent Uke, Clueless Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

Mind is in Killer Mode

2008-09-28T01:48:00.002+08:00

I purposely haven't written on my blog for a long time due to the sensitivity of the topic. So, continue to read at your own risk; this is my article, and therefore biased, without immediate evidence or proof.

You see, I began to search the country for Tokusatsu fans. At first, it was a success, having made new friends through a well-known forum that is diverse in many forms of Tokusatsu series.

The forum had accomplish many things, things that some of us are not allowed to be part of. Therefore, one of them by the name of "Altered Beast King" left the forum and went bust in 2007. I never heard from him ever since.

There was one time that the events of the forum went into HIATUS mode. It is due to the members having major examinations during that period. After that, they have decided to come up with a brilliant plan to show off how fucking elitist, or in a nicer way, how talented they are.

They have picked up very well. However, they have abandoned some of their faithful members in the forum. In so doing, I decided to gradually be far away from them bit by bit.

Here's a rhetorical question: Why did they kill the people that have made them successful?

It is because they want to "purify" the forum by bashing otakus, kicking them out of the production team. This forum do not deserved to be famous.

Even "Taxman" left. This clearly shows what the forum's intentions are. I will never again support them unless some of the ex-members return.

Why did I write this? I originally planned to expand my horizons, trying to find like-minded people in supporting my cause. Even during their HIATUS mode, I still decided to continue supporting them.

However, when they rebuild their empire, I was left out of it. I was not even considered to be a faithful member of their forum. Besides the emotional disgust, I received more when finding out about my personal life outside of the forum. I told them not to involve my personal matters into forum matters. Being disgusted but also deeply hurt, I voiced out my opinions as to why until now, I wasn't able to be part of something bigger. I was then insulted, humiliated, defeated and above all, killed on the very forum that I swore allegiance to, which was quite saddening and yet I still linked them through my youtube. Well, not anymore.

This is corruption and the new forum is nothing but their own corruption.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Graduation, Here I Come!!!

2008-09-16T14:40:00.002+08:00

OK! I just got my results, and guess what?

I HAVE COMPLETED ALL MODULES!

And do you know what that means?

GRADUATION!!!

And by the way, here are my results!

(Censored my real name, my admin number and the institution in which I "was" in to protect my own identity)

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Anyway, in another news, will be looking forward to Halloween. (That's when I will be collecting my certificate)
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That is all for now.

And by the way, to Yunku-chan: Love ya lots!

From,
Alucard Yamada

One Rant, One Complaint and One Help!

2008-09-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

OK! Seriously, there is something that is bugging me.

Why does some people always use and abuse my weakness and make it a habit of using that when that fucking topic is NOT even related to THAT?!

Anyway, another topic, why do some bastards always abuse their girlfriends? I mean, c'mon! My female best friend recently broke up with her boyfriend. And it's not even her fault! What's worse is that that bastard wanted to sever ties with her. What a jerk-off!

And yeah, that leads me to a dilemma.

Should I be there for my female best friend as more than a best friend?

I'm not sure.

Anyway, that is all for now.

From,
Alucard Yamada

A painful ordeal

2008-08-24T21:16:00.005+08:00

Now, I just want to post this up because I have been missing my dearest Yunku for quite some time and I would like to say the following:

*I still love her with all my heart.
*I'll never give up even though I always missed the opportunity to talk to her.
*I desire to be there for her always.

And one more thing:

ATTN: Yunku

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!

I know that I haven't been there for you ever since your school term has started.

But I just want you to know that I still need you in my life.

It is because I still am truly in love with you.

And I am sorry.

Sorry for causing hurt to the both of us.

Sorry for the times that I fell asleep when you need me the most.

And one more thing, I'm sorry for being in a country far away from yours.

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And also, I dedicate this song to the both of us.

Will upload this song on imeem later.

Anyway, here are the lyrics. Thanks to MFoogle from beat+WINGS for the translations.

The song title is called: "PIECE IN LOVE" by Yusuke Sakai

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PIECE IN LOVE

歌：酒井悠介　作詞、曲：土屋陽輔　編曲：中山崇史

強き想いを抱いて　永遠の息吹を　PIECE IN LOVE

語り合った夢は数え切れず　この身体の中に流れて
一雫の涙でさえ　そう　愛に満ち溢れた欠片となって

舞い降りた奇跡に身を委ね　変わらぬ気持ちに全てを捧げて

強き想いを抱いて　未来を見上げよう
響き合う心には　永遠の息吹を

求め合った想いは　時を止めて　今を果てしなく感じて
記憶の一つに刻まれた　あなたのその姿に手を伸ばして

移り変わりの中で何を想って　帰れぬ昨日に別れを告げよう

白き翼を開いて　未来へ飛び立とう
巡り会うその時に　再びあなたを想うから

強き想いを抱いて　未来を見上げよう
響き合う心には　永遠の息吹を　PIECE IN LOVE

白き翼を開いて　未来へ飛び立とう
巡り会うその時に　再びあなたを想うから　PIECE IN LOVE

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Tsuyoki omoi wo idaite towa no ibuki wo PIECE IN LOVE

Katari atta yume wa kazoekirezu kono karada no naka ni nagarete
Hitoshizuku no namida de sae sou ai ni michi afureta kakera to natte

Mai orita kiseki ni mi wo yudane
Kawaranu kimochi ni subete wo sasagete

Tsuyoki omoi wo idaite mirai wo miageyou
Hibiki au kokoro ni wa towa no ibuki wo

Motome atta omoi wa toki wo tomete
Ima wo hateshinaku kanjite
Kioku no hitotsu ni kisamareta anata no sono sugata ni te wo nobashite

Utsurikawari no naka de nani wo omotte
Kaerenu kinou ni wakare wo tsugeyou

Shiroki tsubasa wo hiraite mirai e tobitatou
Meguriau sono toki ni futatabi anata wo omou kara

Tsuyoki omoi wo idaite mirai wo miageyou
Hibiki au kokoro ni wa towa no ibuki wo PIECE IN LOVE

Shiroki tsubasa wo hiraite mirai e tobitatou
Meguriau sono toki ni futatabi anata wo omou kara PIECE IN LOVE

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I'll embrace my strong feelings and piece my eternal breaths in love

My dreams that talked together are infinite and stream inside this body
Yeah, even one drop of a tear was so full of love. It became broken

Devote yourself to flying down on miracles; give up everything to identical feelings

Let’s embrace our strong feelings and admire the future
In our hearts echoing our eternal breathing together

Our thoughts that demanded each other stopped time
Felt without ending the present
And cut up just one memory
I reached out my hand to that shape of you

Let's feel something within the change and say goodbye to yesterday, who will never come back

Let's spread our white wings and take off towards the future
Since when I happened to come across you that time, I've had feelings for you once again

Let’s embrace our strong feelings and admire the future
In our hearts echoing our eternal breathing together
Piece in love

Let's spread our white wings and take off towards the future
Since when I happened to come across you that time, I've had feelings for you once again
Piece in love

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From,
Alucard Yamada
(Adam "Akado" Yamada)

Summer is Over, But I'm Still Right Here. 「夏の終わりがまだここにある」

2008-08-14T04:17:00.004+08:00

Yes, it may be for a short while.

But we have a ultra great time over the summer.

Do you want to know why?

This is because she and I have come to realise that we actually have feelings for each other.

Even living in different continents cannot stop our love for each other.

However, summer is over and autumn starts.

Don't worry, dear. I will be stronger than ever.

And yeah, in order for this relationship to work, patience is the key.

And as I wrap up my post right here, here's my reminder of my resolutions for this year.

1) Need to buck up on my social life. PENDING
2) Have someone to be my girlfriend. PASSED
3) Get an ideal job, prefer night shift. PENDING
4) Maintain my friendships with people. BORDERLINE
5) MUST. START. ROCK BAND! PENDING

And also, here's a beautiful song by The Local Art.

It's called "Natsu no Owari ga Mada Koko ni Aru".

Meaning "Summer is Over, But I'm Still Right Here".

Anyway, enjoy!

And have a great semester, dear!
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「夏の終わりがまだここにある」
Performed by The Local Art
Lyrics and Music by Satoshi Okada

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夏の終わりがまだここにある
出会った頃に戻る約束
今でもずっと忘れてないよ
大切な友達

日差しが強い日だった
二人きり海岸沿い歩いていったのを
君は今も覚えているかい?

どんな季節に囲まれようとも
なんとなく過ぎゆく時間
あっという間に一年が咲いては散ってゆく

夏の終わりがまだここにある
時が僕らを塗り替えようとしても
今でもずっと忘れられない
大切な友達

出会った頃にリセットして
友達に戻ろうって言ったのはいいけど何故か
あれから一度も逢ってないね

今でも無償に君に逢いたくなる時があるんだ
妙に切なくなって君の全てを思い出したくなる

君への想いメロディーに乗せて
海岸沿いで奏でてみても
二度と戻らぬ同じ夏の日
君をなくしてから

時が経っても消えてくれない
良い事ばかり思い出すから
君への想い募るばかりだ
もうあの日々は来ないのに

ラララララララ
ラララララララ
ラララララララ
ラララララララ

夏の終わりがまだここにある
君に好きと言えないまま

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Natsu no owari ga mada koko ni aru
Deatta goro ni modoru yakusoku
Ima demo zutto wasuretenai yo
Taisetsu na todomachi

Hizashi ga tsuyoi hi data
Futarikiri kaigan zoi aruiteitta no wo
Kimi wa ima mo oboeteiru kai?

Donna kisetsu ni kakomareyou tomo
Nantonaku sugiyuku jikan
A tto iu ma ni ichinen ga saite wa chitteyuku

Natsu no owari ga mada koko ni aru
Toki ga bokura wo nurikaeyou toshite mo
Ima demo zutto wasurerarenai
Taisetsu na tomodachi

Deatta goro ni RESET shite
Tomodachi ni modorou tte itta no wa ii kedo nazeka
Arekara ichido mo attenai ne

Ima demo mushou ni kimi ni aitakunaru toki ga arun da
Myou ni setsunakunatte kimi no subete wo omoidashitakunaru

Kimi e no omoi MELODY ni nosete
Kaigan zoi de kanadetemite mo
Nido to modoranu onaji natsu no hi
Kimi wo nakushitekara

Toki ga tatte mo kietekurenai
Yoi koto bakari omoidasu kara
Kimi e no omoi tsunoru bakari da
Mou ano hibi wa konai no ni

La la la la la la la (x5)

Natsu no owari ga mada koko ni aru
Kimi ni suki to ienai mama
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A Survey

2008-08-05T21:12:00.003+08:00

Starting time: 2115 hours
Name: Adam Akado Yamada
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 10
Height: 5'8" (173 cm)
Where do you live: Singapore
Favourite drinks: Root Beer, Ribena, Green Tea
Favourite breakfast: Cereal

Have you ever..
been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Sometimes
Broken someone's heart: HELL NO!
Fell off your chair: Yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting someone to call: Yes
Save e-mails: Yes
What is your room like: Overcrowded.
What is right beside you: My honey! (as in a pot of honey)
What is the last thing you ate: Fish

Ever had
chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: Yes
Broken nose: Yes
Do you believe love at first sight: YES!
Like picnics: Yes
Who was, were the last person you danced with: no one
Last made you smile: Charlynn
You last yelled at: Some drunk idiot across the street

Today did you
Talked to someone you like: YES!
Kiss someone: Does virtually count?
Get sick: lovesick
Talk to ex: NO
Miss someone: YES!
Eat: Yes

Best feeling in the world: To love and feel loved.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Stuffed Bear.
Whats under your bed: Floor
Who do you really hate: None. Hatred begets more hatred.

What time is it now: 2125 hours

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: YES.
Do you have any siblings: Yes
Do you want children: Yes
Do you smile often: No
Do you like your hand writing: So-so
Are you toe nails painted: No.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep: hers
What colour shirt are you wearing now: White
What are you doing at 7pm yesterday: Having dinner

I can't wait till: Graduation.
When will you cry last: Not sure.
Are you a friendly person: Used to.
Do you have pet: Cat
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: My mother
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Yes.
What are u doing right now? : Talking to her.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: No

Can you handle the truth?: Sometimes
Are you too forgiving: Nope. Not forgiving enough.
Are you close to your father and mother?: Not really
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: no one.

5 things i was doing 10 years ago:
-Primary School
-In the soccer team
-Was a gangster
-Smart Aleck
-Aspiring Scientist

5 things on my to-do list today:
-Work
-Watch TV
-Talking to her
-Go to forums
-Manage my business

snacks i enjoy:
-Nachos
-Potato Chips
-Fries
-Cheezels
-Nuts

5 things I would do if were a billionaire:
-Set up my own company
-Get a Green Card
-To have a Cosplay Wedding
-Get Power and Respect
-Raise a family

5 of my bad habits:
-Being ruthless towards my enemies
-Biting my fingernails
-Laugh when I'm not supposed to
-Resort to violence if things don't work in my favor
-Prefers to go out rather than stay home

5 places i have lived in:
-Singapore
-Malaysia
-Indonesia
-Pulau Ubin
-Sentosa

I TAG:
-Charlynn
-Guan Chuan
-Sing Thai
-Kelvin
-Samantha

Results to the Morning Musume Quizzes!

2008-07-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

OK! Here's what I got.

What Ex-Member of Morning Musume Are You

Yaguchi Mari
The 2nd generation addition to Momusu.
Mari is short and cute as well as loud and silly.
She has been one of the most active members in H!P.
She quit in 2005 because of personal matters.
Favorite Song: Memory Seishun no Hikari

What Morning Musume Sub-group are you

Tanpopo

Which Member of Morning Musume are you

Michishige Sayumi! Sayumin is gorgeous, but she's got one fatal fault: she really can't sing all that well. Still, Sayu gives her best! And for her, that means being as cute/sexy as possible. For that, we're grateful. Sure, you might seem a little of a narcissist, but you're drop-dead gorgeous. And you know it--you've never changed your hair since in the limelight.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Morning Musume Quizzes!

2008-07-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Saw these on my girlfriend's blog. So I tried them out.

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. I Love You, Yunku-chan!

Some Interesting Quizzes That I Took

2008-07-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

Yup. The title of this post said so.

So, here are my results.

Enjoy!

What is your strongest emotion? Your Result: Love/Happiness It appears love and peace and prosperity is your strongest emotion. You want everyone to be just as happy as you don't want anyone hurt and will do anything to make everyone smile
Jealousy
Hate/Anger
Greed
Lust/Attention Whore
Guilt/Regret
Fear
Sadness
What is your strongest emotion? Create MySpace Quizzes

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Courage You are Courage. Courage is bravery, daring to do what is right in the face of adversity. Courage allows for the triumph of good over evil. "Courage does what must be done no matter what the consequences."
Love
Faith
Friendship
Charity
Peace
Which Positive Quality Are You?

What's Your Best Quality? Your Result: Out-Going Your best quality is out-going! People like you because you are fun to be around and no one ever knows what you will do next. Also you are not afraid to say or do whatever you want.
Personality
Loving
Ambitious
Intelligence
Sense of Humor
What's Your Best Quality? Take More Quizzes

What kind of person do you tend to fall for? Your Result: a person you fall in love with people in general. this really is the best way to be, you don't discriminate against certain types, like jocks, or artsy people, or other catagories, you just follow your heart, and do what it tells you. you're on the way to a good life.
sweet-heart/funny character
jock/cheerleader
skater
punk - emo
What kind of person do you tend to fall for? Create MySpace Quizzes

Which Football/Soccer Player Are You? Your Result: Steven Gerrard-All Round Midfeilder An inspirational captain, a great range of passing, a great touch, brilliant shooting and above all; a fantastic work rate, you will do anything to win the ball back for your team, and then make something special happen with it. A tremendous all rounder
David Villa-Striker
Cristiano Ronaldo-Winger
Cesc Fabregas-Playmaker/center midfeilder
Danny Alves-Full Back
Nesta-Center Back
Petr Cech-Goalkeeper
Which Football/Soccer Player Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

From,
Alucard Yamada

In Serious Need of Time Management...

2008-07-28T01:29:00.003+08:00

What's happening to me?

For days on end, I keep sleeping on awkward times in time.

But the worse part is that I have slept through a conversation that was going on, but I didn't realise it!

My goodness, what have I done? I'm sorry!

And, darling, don't worry. I will still remember you in my heart.

How I wish I could fly there right now?!

I'm now feeling stressed beyond expectations.

I really need to be with her, but time is working against me.

But above all, I will keep trying. I will never give up.

I believe that one day, we will be united.

To, Charlynn a.k.a. Yunku-chan,

I love you so very much! I want to be there for you. I need you.

And I'm sorry for all the things that I have done and not done.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Plans for the future

2008-07-23T21:09:00.004+08:00

I am beginning to reflect on my life for the future.

In fact, I am having foresight right now.

I am starting to look at how my life is in 5-10 years time.

Anyway, here are my long term goals:
-To get married to my special someone. (you know who she is.)
-To get a Green Card. (for those of you who are wondering, I actually mean the United States Permanent Resident Card.)
-To have a stable career.
-To have kids. 2 to be precise. Hopefully one boy and one girl.
-To start up an entertainment company by 30 years of age.

So, those are my plans for the future.

That is all.

And yeah, here are the lyrics to the song at my music corner. Hope you like it.
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"Truly Madly Deeply" originally by Savage Garden

Music and Lyrics: Daniel Jones and Darren Hayes

Performed by: Cascada

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath you leave
That leave me deeply too

I will be strong
I will be faithful
Because I am counting on a new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning ya

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna play with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
That'll make you wanna cry
The tears of joy for al the pleasure and the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection
Of the highest power and lonely hours
The tears divide you

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna play with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby
Don't have to close your eyes
Cus it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath you leave
That leave me deeply too

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna play with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna play with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

From,
Alucard Yamada

AAARGH! What's happening to me?!

2008-07-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I was having a special conversation with someone I love very very much. You all know by now who I am referring to. And I planned to stay up all night to talk to her.

However, I dozed off in front of my computer, not knowing what happened next.

And that made me crazy. There are so many questions left unanswered. And I am worried that she felt ignored or something like that.

So, to you, my dear Yunku, I apologise for not replying your messages.

And yeah, my laptop ran out of battery.

When I woke up this morning, I was too late.

Anyway, I just want to say that I am sorry. I know I've messed up. Please forgive me, dear.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Cosplay Festival 2008 (a.k.a. CosFest VII)

2008-07-09T06:53:00.002+08:00

OK!

Sorry for the HUGE delay.

Anyway, CosFest is a success.

Lots of people cosplaying this year.

And you know what's the craze that is happening?

CARAMELLDANSEN!

Oh man. I can't believe I just typed that.

Anyway, this post will be picture-intensive, so consider this post GPGT!

*GPGT: Got Picture Got Talk!

One more thing: I'll only be adding a few pictures only. So, don't expect much.

From,
Alucard Yamada

As I Lay Thinking...

2008-06-30T17:11:00.000+08:00

I think about what I've done. What mistakes that I have commited.

And yeah, reflect on my life.

For those of you who don't know, I'm on Medical Leave today.

So, I have plenty of time to review what I have achieved so far.

Anyway, I just want to say that ever since I knew my someone special, I have started to have a purpose in life. And that is to love her, cherish her, remember her, take care of her, and if possible. be hers for all eternity. And yeah, I'm referring to my darling, Yunku. She is ultimately the nicest, kindest and the most wonderful person I have ever known.

And yeah, looks, age difference and where we come from don't matter to me.

It's the personality and trust that's important in a relationship. And yeah, patience and communication is the key in ours.

On another angle in this matter, most of my friends are against this. FUCK THEM! They can go fuck themselves for all I care.

As for my family, they have mixed reactions to this. I have no comments on that.

Whatever it is, I will never give her up. I will never let her down. I will never run around and desert her. I will never make her cry. I will never say goodbye. I will never tell a lie and hurt her.

She's the reason why I keep fighting for each and every day.

She's the reason that I have become stronger in every aspect of my life.

Anyway, here's a quote from one of my favourtie characters, Rocky Balboa:

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't 'bout how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"

For once, I agree with this statement.

This statement have opened my mind to things.

And that's why I shall fight to remain positive in every aspect of my life.

And yeah, to Charlynn a.k.a. Yunku: I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!! *gives her a loving hug and a passionate kiss*

And in so doing, I will give it my all to you.

From,
Alucard Yamada

The blog post with no name

2008-06-28T23:31:00.008+08:00

Actually, I don't know what to say.

But here is a song dedicated to my love.

I will put it in my Music Corner later.

But first, the lyrics to the song are in this post below:
________________________________________

"At The Beginning" by Richard Marx and Donna Lewis

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Operation: Disturbia

2008-06-16T13:08:00.004+08:00

Well, this is it.

Why do I always feel that I could not trust people anymore?

I mean that some of my friends have crossed the line and involve my loved ones, my personal life, etc.

Seriously, I really can't stand people who gets on my nerves just because they find it funny.

Whatever it is, FUCK THAT SHIT!

I'm just so annoyed by some people that I will gladly play psychological games to them. Let those fuckers have a taste of their own medicine.

And yeah, one more thing.

Since the fucking when does playing soccer involves money?!

For fuck's sake, soccer IS A GAME AND WILL ALWAYS BE JUST A GAME!

Why do I need to pay for crappy miscellaneous fees?

Whatever it is, I vow that I am no longer involved in the team. EVER. FUCKING. AGAIN!

And yeah, another thing.

I am now feeling upset and angry.

So, If you DARE to cross the fucking line and involve my everything, you will be screwed. Until to the extreme that I'm gonna put MY foot in YOUR ass!!!

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. I'm feeling not too well recently, so forgive my crudeness.

每奋斗

2008-06-10T14:20:00.001+08:00

是到不能很好地
从说对言词不能
一点点支撑互相平时拙笨的这个梦
的重要的忘记了东西是吧
已经不能返
回的应该看不见的道
的前头一同跨过了的

以被与不数断的笑声一起辣的时候间共同分
享间隙没有的光包围的五日作为目标

登上着如果一边
忘记认为当然未来
一直连接了已经不变的时候从今
天开始一边注意到了
不同的朝日来了到迎
接的应该看不见的道的前头已经各自不同的风

是分享不数断的我们
的每天强的强的纽
带间隙没有的光中以明天作为目标的

为了找确实的回答把
那样出发我
们制作了的很多的笑声和梦做为胸现在…

I have a confession to make...

2008-06-05T14:05:00.003+08:00

OK. I don't need actual help or anything. However, I feel that it is more appropriate to post it here.

Anyway, here's my problem, I mean dilemma.

Why am I trying to reject something, I mean someone from my life when I actually have feelings for her in the first place, even though we are from different continents?

Why do I always meet her in my dreams almost all of the time?

Can I actually get to see her in person?

And above all, will I be able to convey my feelings for her?

But still, will she hate me for it or will she love me for it?

I'm just afraid that I had made her angry or made her upset.

But whatever it is, I just want to say "I'm sorry" to her.

If can, I would also like to say "I love you" to her.

Too bad, I'm just a coward. I'm just a man hiding behind a monitor screen.

How I wish I could apologise to her and confess to her in person.

From,
Alucard Yamada
(Adam Akado "Alucard" Yamada)

My First Day of Work

2008-05-26T21:31:00.004+08:00

Well, it's time to say my piece on this.

Today was awesome! Even though I had a major stomach-ache during work.

That's because the people there are super friendly.

Also, the corporate culture there are more westernized and open.

Too bad I can't take pictures there.

Other than that, that's about it.

From,
Alucard Yamada

I can't believe I have to type in this language, but...

2008-05-23T22:01:00.002+08:00

私はこれを信じることができません!

私は自分のきつい仕事でだまされました!

ビッチは、私たちのグループワークのすべてを取って、それを彼女自身のにしました!

まさしく彼女が外国人が私の仕事を盗作する権利を彼女に与えないということであるので!

彼女が地獄で燃えることを願っています!
______________________________

In another news,

Pedra Branca is officially OURS!

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. The text in Japanese ONLY refers to my project partner. Nobody else was involved.

Blog Updates

2008-05-23T00:45:00.001+08:00

Finally!

Have some spare time to update some of my blog parts.

Yup, a new section has just been added at the side.

Go check it out!

From,
Alucard Yamada

A so-called First Date?

2008-05-17T00:30:00.003+08:00

Well, I'm happy about it.

I have finally found what I'm looking for. (I hope.)

A girl with a similar behaviour as me.

It's kind of rare, right.

Yeah!

Anyway, we had our dinner at McDonald's and talked about our lives.

And from our experiences, we are actually quite similar.

Before that, we played this game "Let's Go Jungle!" and got a compatibility score of 82%. WOW!

Although today was quite disruptive, thanks to her brother, today was actually fun.

Now, all that is left is to let the feelings flow and make the first move.

And yeah, I got a big hint. H-I-N-T!

Sorry, won't tell you.

So, I am happy right now.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Begging for a girlfriend - to keep me company!

2008-05-04T22:43:00.003+08:00

Well folks, I can't believe it's been almost a year since I last had a decent relationship... and that was a pain in the ass too.

I keep meaning to work on some updates, but am lacking in time and motivation at the moment. I have, however, started work on a new show and fanfic for the netizens - which I'm sure I'll be able to complete this year. I hope to get on with some more of it today.

I've also considered splitting my priorities into 2, to hunt for the love of my life and put all my efforts on a private degree - perhaps letting the Shitty Armament Fuckers to draft me as I haven't had the time or money to get my medical reports ready. Just some thoughts.

Anyway, yes... speaking of medical, it is indeed that time of year again where my health is due for renewal and I need to raise some morale. This year I'm more skint than ever, as following last year's mental breakdown, the legal issues surrounding the damage of my mind have still not been resolved and I am now paying the hefty price of getting PES Status A in full myself - on top of my normal living conditions, and despite the fact I can't fight the system.

I literally have no one to turn to for this time. Thankfully, a friend from beat+WINGS in the last week has really boosted my morale and I'm pleased to announce that this year we only need to raise my ability to love in the next 6 weeks. I'm sure that's quite achievable!

Of course, if anyone wants to do anything extra (ONLY if you are a girl/woman. NO GUYS ALLOWED!), I'm so skint I wouldn't say no ;) It's been a while since I last spent quality time with a girl/woman, and even those have been just friendly encounters. Nothing special. Plus I need a new hobby over the summer!

So, if you can help to raise my ability to love in the next 6 weeks... clicky clicky!

PLEASE HELP ME FIND LOVE IN 6 WEEKS!

Thanks all! ^^

From,
Alucard Yamada

All it takes is a spark and you get...

2008-04-29T17:38:00.004+08:00

...one's anger ready to explode in an entire post!

And for those of you who have no idea what I'm up against, go and fuck yourself. I'm not gonna bother explaining.

This is because there are people who have the nerve of not talking to me anymore.

Ya! I know that you people hate this type of guy. I know that you people despises this type of guy. And above all, I know that you people will not love a guy like me!

Whatever it is, if I don't have any more love in this world (family love does not count in the affairs of the heart.), I might as well say goodbye and "fly away".

So, please, whoever is reading this, please love me...

...I... am... slowly... transforming... into... something... I... don't... want... to... become...

So, please, please love me.....

...before... it's... too... late.....
________________________________________

"Say Anything" by X-Japan

zawameki dake ga kokoro wo sashite
kikoenai mune no toiki
toki wo wasurete motome samayou
takanaru omoi nurashite

Run away from reality I've been crying in the dream
ka'ri tsuita toki ni furuete
yugande mienai kioku kasaneru
kanashimi ga kieru made

You say anything kizutsuke au kotoba demo
Say anything tachikirenai kokoro ni
You say anything Just tell me all your sweet lies
Say anything enji kirenai kokoro ni

If I can go back to where I've been
yume no naka ni dake ikite
owaranai ame ni nureru
nagareru namida wo hakujitsu yume ni somete

You say anything Whatever you like to say to me
Say anything You leave me out of my eyes
You say anything All I can hear is voice from dream
Say anything You can dry my every tear

akari no kieta On the stage hitori mitsumete
ta'risugita hibi ni dakareru
kowashite kure nani mo ka mo kazatta ai mo
toki no suna ni kieru made

You say anything kizutsuke au kotoba demo
Say anything tachikirenai kokoro ni
You say anything Just tell me all your sweet lies
Say anything enji kirenai kokoro ni

Close your eyes
and I'll kill you in the rain
kirei ni koroshi aeba
za'ka no bara ni umoreta
shijin no namida wa kioku ni nagasarete

Time may change my life
But my heart remains the same to you
Time may change your heart
My love for you never changes

You say anything kizutsuke au kotoba demo
Say anything tachi kirenai kokoro ni

You say anything... Say anything
Now you've gone away
Where can I go from here?
Say anything... Say anything...

I believed if time passes,everything turns into beauty
If the rain stop, tears clean the scars of memory
away.
Everything starts wearing fresh colours.
Every sound beginds playing a heartful melody.
Jealousy embellishes a page of epic.
Desire is embraced in a dream

But my mind is still in chaos and.............

I am Officially No Longer a Teenager! (Part 2)

2008-04-22T11:29:00.004+08:00

Actually, yesterday was my birthday.

My medical checkup is really fucked up. Got PES Status A.

Anyway, in other news, my family threw me a surprise party. I didn't expect them to come up with something like that but at least I'm grateful for that.

So, here are some pictures for me to share:

The Birthday Cake:

Me Cutting The Cake:

So there. I have become the big TWO-ZERO. 20 years old.

But it's OK.

From,
Alucard "Dracula" Yamada

I am Officially no longer a Teenager...

2008-04-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

Yup, as the title said, I am no longer the teenager you all know and love and hate.

As of now, April 21st 2008, I am officially 20 years old.

So, a happy birthday, a sad birthday, an angry birthday for me.

From,
Alucard "Dracula" Yamada

P.S. I'll still keep the Dracula name UNTIL I find myself the love of my life.

And anyway, my birthday wish?

** ** *** *** * *** ** ******* *******.

That will be all.

Lesson learnt: A lone wolf will always be a lone wolf

2008-04-15T10:54:00.002+08:00

Why is that?

Why do I have this curse?

Fuck luck! Fuck fortune!

Those two things never help me one bit.

And yeah, Fuck romance!

It's just a heartbreaker that feeds on lonely souls.

Seriously, no matter how hard I tried, no matter how much I change, it still is bloody the same!

What do they say? "Tis better to have love and lost than to never to have love at all"?!

Fuck that shit!

I'd rather not have love that is lost.

Cause you know why? It devastates me.

Seriously, it's not disease that ravages one's life. It's love.

And they say that it is a beautiful thing? FUCK THEM!

Tell me why does falling in love feels such a burden?

Why does it have to infect someone with hopes and dreams and be human, only to end up feeling heartbroken and soul shredded?

Crap!

Sad and Angry at the same time...

2008-04-13T22:07:00.004+08:00

Yup, that's how I feel right now.

The girl that I have been chasing after for months, have fallen for another person.

And it really hurts me.

And of all time, why must it happen the week before my birthday.

But seriously, it matters if she realises my love for her or not.

Crap! Another week, and I will no longer be a teenager.

I will eventually touch the TWO-ZERO mark.

Yup, I will be 20!

SHEESH! WHAT A LAUGHINGSTOCK I HAVE BECOME!

Being 20 and STILL NO GIRLFRIEND!

WHAT A LOSER! WHAT AN IDIOT!

And worse, WHAT A PARASITE I HAVE BECOME!

Seriously, I have been wondering. Am I that parasitic in this world?

Am I a disease that people fear and disrespect?

What am I? WHO AM I?

Anyway, I just hope that she's happy. That's all that matters?

For now, yes.

But for me? I WILL BE FUCKING MISERABLE FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE!

AND THIS ISN'T A BLOODY PHASE THAT I'M GOING THROUGH!

NEVER IS AND NEVER WILL BE JUST A FUCKING PHASE!!!

WHY?

CAUSE I LOVE HER! I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART!

AND YEAH, IT'S MY FAULT FOR BEING A COWARD!

IT'S MY FAULT FOR NOT TELLING HER WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE TO!

IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!

FUCK!!!!!

Anyway, that's all of my rants for now.

Nothing can help me now. Nothing.

So, I just pray for her happiness.

And as for me? I want to be happy, but I can't.

But I will never give up. I will never surrender.

As long as I live, I will fight with honor.

As long as I fight, losing is not an option.

And as of now, my birthday wish will now be altered.

Over and out!

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. Current mood: In an unrest. In a rush of panic. In a state of shock.

Rider Status

2008-04-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

Rider 1 (R.K.): OK
Rider 2 (N.S.): NG
Rider V3 (Y.K.): NG
Riderman (S.M.): NG
Rider X (M.A.): NG
Amazon (R.S.): NG
Stronger (S.M.): NG
Skyrider (M.F.): OK
Super-1 (A.T.): OK
Rider ZX (H.N.): OK

Will not explain further.

If you want to know, you must watch the movie "Kamen Rider THE END".

From,
Alucard Yamada

Crap! How I suck at fitness tests...

2008-04-10T19:53:00.003+08:00

Yup, it's me again.

Only this time, I'm battered out.

Came in strong, but to no avail.

I lost the fight.

And yeah, all that happened yesterday.

And I'm still in pain.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Laptop gone haywire (Part 2)

2008-04-08T23:19:00.001+08:00

So, since I have a lot of restoring to do, I might as well get a new one.

But do not fret! I will be back.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Laptop gone haywire

2008-04-08T13:19:00.002+08:00

Alright guys.

Sorry for the sudden news.

Yeah, my laptop kind of act funny nowadays, and the BSOD appeared today. Not once, not twice but LOTS OF TIMES!

Man, I seriously need to either repair and restore this set, or if worse comes to worse, buy a new one.

Crap! How I hate this, just when I was about to do my presentation, this shit happens.

So, you guessed it, I won't be online for a few days, until I resolve this matter.

Other than that, I'm out of business.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Time to kick some ass!!!

2008-04-01T17:58:00.003+08:00

Yeah, presentation is due next week and I have to finish my slides in proper.

Anyway, it's time for me to kick some idiot's ass!!!

Don't worry, it's my rival. Not an enemy, not a friend, but a RIVAL.

Seriously, where's the healthy competition? And now that idiot is resorting to stealth! I'll show that fucker who "he" is dealing with.

That's enough of my rants, now I've got to concentrate on my FYP.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Where does my heart truly belong?

2008-03-31T11:48:00.002+08:00

I took the time to do a quiz right here: http://youniverse.com/love/

And this is what I got:

"The Lone Ranger"

About:
You're the kind of person who would probably rather avoid the hassle and the heartache of love if you can help it. Chances are it feels like a bit of a waste of energy especially as you're a bit of a loner at heart. Perhaps you're frightened of what will happen if you let anyone get too close and, as a result, you tend to push love away rather than risk getting hurt. Maybe you're perfectly happy on your own, but if you're not, why not give yourself a chance for a little romance, get out there and meet new people... You can always take it nice and slow...

Emotions:
Anxiety about relationships sometimes get the better of you, especially if you had your fingers burnt in the past. And you're a seriously feisty character. If things don't go your way, it can really wind you up. Sometimes, it's better to just extract yourself from the situation. Right now you're actually feeling quite inspired by all the love you've got to give.

Perceptions:
Truth be told, letting someone get close isn't really your thing. At least for now. You'd like nothing more than to just feel completely natural with the one you love. It would be so special if you could sneak away with them and find a quiet place just the two of you. That would beat all the heartache you seem to put yourself through. Your choice of animal shows that you are someone with a very clear vision of what you want. You have a soaring spirit, natural intelligence and tend to experience great successes in your life.

Aspirations:
If you do find yourself in a relationship, then you tend to be quite reserved and avoid letting your lover get too close. It seems you're afraid that the higher you fly, the further you'll fall. You need constant reassurance that someone is in love with you. Getting engaged might just settle those anxieties once and for all. Love isn't central to your everlasting happiness. You're a strong individual and you still value your freedom. For a relationship to really work you need to carve out precious pockets of time for yourself. It's the healthiest way to be. And when you reunite with your lover, things are better than ever...

Conclusion:
Well, some of them are true, some of them are false. You decide for yourself whether to believe this article or not. But seriously, I need to love and to be loved again.

So for those that I want to be with, please take me into consideration.

How am I so hopelessly in love...

From,
Alucard Yamada

Well then... I got bored. Might as well tell the whole world what I'm up to!

2008-03-21T17:02:00.004+08:00

3 weeks have gone by since the commencement of my final year project.

Well anyway, I do hope that my personal project can be up and running. (That is filming my movies, filming my media show, etc.)

Anyway, here are my plans for CosFest:

-Join the "Marvel Super Heroes team" as "Ghost Rider"

And here are my plans for EOY:

-Cosplay as "Richter Belmont" from AKUMAJOU DRACULA X: CHI NO RONDO
-Make my very own team "Castlevania team"
-Perform the song "Bloody Tears" by Army of the Pharoahs LIVE (with costumes and skit)

Well, that will be all for now.

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. I have updated the look of my blog to another classic game, Strider Hiryu!

BOO-YAH!!! MY RESULTS ARE OUT!!! (Part Deux)

2008-03-19T10:13:00.002+08:00

OK! Here it is. My results!

I obviously have to censor a lot of things in the result slip.

E.g. Which poly I go to, My real name, my Admission Number and my GPA.

So, here it is. With my Internet name.

BOOYAH!

BOO-YAH!!! MY RESULTS ARE OUT!!!

2008-03-19T04:22:00.002+08:00

AND THEY ROCK!

Don't believe me? Here's my results in a flesh!

Semester 2 - 2007/2008
EG3245 WAFER FABRICATION PROCESSES PE D 5
EG3272 AUTOMATION CONTROL TECHNOLOGY CM D 5
EG3275 POWER ELECTRONICS & MOTION CONTROL CM D 5

Well, it's not from the official result slip, but hey, results are results.

So, I do need to buck up on my final year project in order to work my ass off for industrial attachment programme.

Anyways, I'm super happy!

But for now, I gotta go. It's 4 A.M. here.

So, see you later!

From,
Alucard Yamada

A Good and Bad Day.

2008-03-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

Well, today was good and bad.

I get to meet her again. Well, everything was in order.

Until she had to leave halfway at about 6pm.

Well, I was upset. I didn't have enough time to say what I want to say.

I'm crapped up.

I was wondering: Why does she shut me out?

I mean that we had so much in common. And she also have problems of her own. So why doesn't she accept my aid?

Seriously, I'm no chivalrous guy.

In fact, I am the Dude-In-Distress and she is the Knight Girl.

So why can't she rescue me from several of my broken hearts?!

In fact, my heart is too broken to be mended.

And once my heart is no more, a Horror will be unleashed.

So, I'm gonna say this to her: I want to help you. I need you. Because I love you.

That is all.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Happy but ILL!

2008-03-12T15:05:00.004+08:00

Well, at least my project is now up and running, thanks to my team.

Now I can easily relax myself and finish off the presentation.

Anyway, I now have a very bad cough and cold.

I just hope that I'm well enough to go out this weekend.

For now, I gotta go!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Bored!

2008-03-04T13:11:00.002+08:00

So, I'm now in my 2nd day of FYP (Final Year Project).

And I'm freakin' bored.

There's lots of stuff to do, lots of work to be done.

But I have no drive to do them.

IT'S BECAUSE MY PARTNER ISN'T HERE!!!

Man! How frustrating can that be?!

Well, gotta go now. As usual, I will be done by 1800 hours.

Finally! A place for all my reviews!

2008-03-01T02:29:00.002+08:00

Alright! This is it! I have another blog entitled "Alucard's The Ultimate Media Freak" where I will do my reviews on Movies, Music, Games and whatever related to the media.

So please, check it out!

http://ultimatemediafreak.blogspot.com/

FORZA SINGAPURA! Singapore to host Youth Olympics 2010!

2008-02-21T22:56:00.002+08:00

Well, this win will definitely benefit Singapore in more ways than one.

And yeah, I was there the entire time. And I must say, I am impressed!

Well, pictures say more than words, so enjoy!

I'll Be Waiting for you...

2008-02-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

Well, a few days ago, I confessed to her how I feel.

But too bad, my feelings were not acknowledged.

But it's ok. I can wait. Even if I couldn't go on, I will still wait for her.

Anyway, I dedicate this song to her,

I'll Be Waiting by Lenny Kravitz

He broke your heart
He took your soul
You're hurt inside
Because there's a hole
You need some time
To be alone
Then you will find
What you always know

I'm the one who really loves you baby
I've been knocking at your door

As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there
Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me, I'll be there

I've seen you cry
Into the night
I feel your pain
Can I make it right
I realized there's no end inside

Yet still I'll wait
For you to see the light

I'm the one who really loves you baby
I can't take it anymore

As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there
Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me, I'll be there

You are my only I've ever known
That makes me feel this way
Couldn't on my own
I want to be with you until we're old

You have the love you need right in front of you
Please come home

As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there
Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me, I'll be there

To someone special...

2008-02-14T19:35:00.002+08:00

OK. This is it. This is my Valentine's Day greeting to her (:P Will not tell you her name!)

And yes, it's in a form of poem.

Here we go:

You are the light of my life.
You are like the sunshine of day.
You are like the moonlight of night.
You are like the glimmer when I lost my way to darkness.

Above all, I can't live without you.

Because without you, I'm nothing...
Without you, I'm just an empty shell...

If only you could see me as who I am,
Things would be so different.

As I wander this planet alone, eventually, the sky is black.
Hoping to see the light of day again.

And as I hoped, I think about you, in my heart, in my mind.

As I realised this, I hope that you can accept my feelings.
For it is I who love you more than you will ever know.

Yes, I said it. I Love You.

To: S... Someone Special
From: Alucard Yamada

A Bloody Valentine's Day... Again.

2008-02-14T19:27:00.002+08:00

Yup. That's what the title said.

Anyway, of all days, why is my shitty exam on this day.

FUCK! I can't even do the paper properly.

Shit. I'm so gonna "graduate early" from polytechnic.

Meanwhile, I am so idiotic.

I should have send that special someone a Valentine's Day greeting through e-mail instead of something else. Now I'm freaking pissed.

Oh well, at least it's not so bad. BUT I WAS WRONG!

Things got worse at home.

My sister used my computer without no good fucking permission. I mean, c'mon!

Anyway, enough ranting for today.

Ah fuck it! I go post at a different article.

What my name actually mean?

2008-02-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

What Adam Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

To Some Idiot Gal Who Has Lost Her Way To Happiness...

2008-01-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hey, you!

Yeah, you!

I know that you are reading my blog, Ms. Aralc Nag.

Whatever it is, just keep reading.

I have long forgotten about the past. And I sincerely want to apologise and ask for your apology. (Yes, it's a two-way transition. You think that you are 100% innocent?)

Anyway, I came to realise that you and I are similar in terms of behaviour. BUT why can't we just fucking get along?

In fact, I symphatize with you... Correction, I EMPHATIZE WITH YOU!

Believe me, until now, I still feel the same way. I was left out in my own class. Ever. Since. SECONDARY SCHOOL. So, if you think that your life is worse? THINK AGAIN!

By the way, count yourself lucky. At least you have a family and a group of friends by your side.

As for me? I HAVE NO ONE TO TURN TO! (Well, except for my family and the Almighty)

But other than that, other people abandon me for no fucking good reason.

So, ask yourself this question, why can't we just forgive, forget, renew and begin a healthy friendship. One more time.

I do hope that you are reading this with an open heart.

And I am willing to accept whatever decision you make.

Even if you hate me for all of eternity, bear this in mind.

I still give a fuck about you! (Subtitle: I still care about you!)

And in so doing, I am willing to let you go from my heart.

All I ever wanted is to see you happy once again.

May all your wishes come true.

From,
Alucard Yamada

P.S. It's not too late to come back. You still have until February 14th to do so.

From that day onwards, My heart will belong to another girl.

PEACE(^^)v

and Good Luck!!

A Retarded Day...

2008-01-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

Alright, the day went pretty smoothly. Until retards in the MRT station did not bother to move their asses at the escalator, causing me to miss the MRT home.

Seriously, how fucking retard can things get? People these days have no initiative.

THE FUCKING ESCALATOR IN FRONT OF YOU HAS SPACE, DAMN IT! MOVE YOUR ASS!!

DON'T MAKE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN A HURRY, WAIT TO SAY FUCKING "EXCUSE ME" JUST TO GET TO THEIR RESPECTIVE TRAINS!

GET THIS IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD, RETARDS!!!

New Year Resolutions for 2008!

2008-01-02T11:12:00.000+08:00

My new year resolutions... JUST IN CASE you guys were wondering about them.

1) Need to buck up on my social life.
2) Have someone to be my girlfriend.
3) Get an ideal job, prefer night shift.
4) Maintain my friendships with people.
5) MUST. START. ROCK BAND!

That is all.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Welcome 2008!

2008-01-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

OK! Now is the time to welcome the new year with a BANG!

Actually, I'm a day late due to a very bad hangover yesterday.

Anyway, here's 2007 in a nutshell:

My sea journey (well, not really):

My first song on DDR Extreme:

And to sum it up:

JUST KIDDING!!!

Anyway, that previous picture was just a joke. Just ignore it.

Next, well, we have to move on to the more hot topics!

A Shurah Family Annual Dinner

HSS Reunion 2007

Mu.Gen.In.Fi.Ni.Ty. Reunion

"At last, you have come, friends..."

"...The door of fate shall open!"

LOL! I DIDN'T EXPECT TO COME UP WITH SUCH CRAP!!!

Anyway, I have to get a move on!

YAY! I PWNED SOMEONE ON DM!!!

Me and my special friend

BUGIS KAKIS!!!!!

And last but not least, FIREWORKS!!!

Well, basically, that sums up 2007.

Have a happy new year, everyone!

Reflections of 2007

2007-12-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Bottomline: It is normal. Not so good, not so bad. It has basically 2 sides to everything.

Anyway, just to review what I have wrote for my resolutions for 2007.

I will personally grade them.

1) To have a girlfriend - BORDERLINE PASS
2) To start up a rock band - FAILED
3) To start up a Tokusatsu Club in NYP - FAILED
4) To NOT make any enemies this year - FAILED
5) To love somebody to the fullest - (??? Why did I write this for?)
6) To live life to the fullest - (??? Why did I write this for?)
7) To survive all 365 days of 2007 - (??? Why did I write this for?)

Anyway, if you want to know what my resolutions for 2008 are, you have to wait for 24 hours more!

Until then, see ya!

From,
Alucard Yamada

Season's Greetings

2007-12-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

To all fellow people out there, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Anyway, Just feeling bored at the moment. Still NO PSP, NO PS3. I'm just an ordinary guy with ordianry stuff, but that's OK. At least I still have happiness.

OK, I'll stop here for now.

Will be back when I'm back.

From,
Alucard Yamada

Tagged once again! LOL!

2007-12-18T02:44:00.001+08:00

Crap! I am tagged by my friend.

Oh well, might as well get it over and done with.

Would you prefer to..
[1] Lose a lover, or love a loser?
Ans: Love a loser, cause the loser will eventually be a winner!

[2] Smoke pot, or drink beer?
Ans: Drink Beer. That's what I do best!

[3] Run two miles straight, or walk eight miles?
Ans: Walk 8 miles while enjoying the view.

[4] Go to the beach, or have a milkshake?
Ans: Have milkshake.

[5] Laugh when nobody else is, or not laugh when everyone else is?
Ans: Laugh when nobody else is.

[6] Drink ten cans of soda at once, or never drink soda again?
Ans: Drink 10 cans of soda at once!

[7] Have your pants ripped, or get thrown in a trash can?
Ans: Pants ripped.

[8] Kiss someone you don’t like or, kiss someone who doesn’t like you?
Ans: KISS SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T LIKE ME! HAHAHA!

[9] Not take a bath for a week or, take a bath in a lake?
Ans: Take a bath in a lake.

[10] Be an only child or have five brothers?
Ans: Have five brothers, so can form the "Dragon 5"

[11] Cry in front of 5,000 strangers, or cry in front of your whole school?
Ans: Cry in front of 5000 strangers.

[12] Be able to rewind time or, see the future?
Ans: Rewind time.

[14] Die the day after the best day of your life, or live to be ninty?
Ans: Live to be ninety

[15] Go skydiving or, go scuba diving?
Ans: Skydiving!

[16] Be loved by one person, or have ten people who like you?
Ans: Be loved by one person

[17] Be fat and pretty or skinny and ugly?
Ans: Skinny and ugly. Cause I am one now.

[18] Love and lose or, never love at all?
Ans: Never love at all.

BASICS

Name: Adam Alucard "Akado" Yamada 「山田赤土」”アダム・アルカード”
High school: Henderson Secondary School
Elementary: Zhangde Primary School
Favorite drink: Root Beer
Favorite fruit: Apple
Favorite season: Winter
LAST Talked to: James
Shower: This afternoon.
Watched: The Golden Compass

HAVE YOU...

Ever cried over a girl/boy: Yes...

Been arrested: No, but I am the one doing the arresting!

Ever had a friend die: Yes.

Ever used a gun: Yes.

Ever finished a puzzle: Yes.

Ever got beaten up: Yes.

Ever hated someone: Yes.

Ever made a huge mistake: Yes.

Ever jogged a mile: Yes. In fact, more than that!

Ever broken someones heart: NO WAY!

NUMBERS

Favorite number(s): 1, 3, 6, 9, 15 and 24.

PICK ONE

Blue or Red?: Red

Spring or Autumn?: Spring

RANDOM

Do you speak any other language: Besides English and Malay, I speak Japanese, German and Russian.

Wanting to see someone?: Yes. And her name is サマンサ. Sorry, can't reveal her name in English. :P

How old do you look: I look like in my late 20s.

How old do you act: As if I'm having a mid-life crisis.

Do you have any pets?: Fishes

There will be a Bloody... err... White Christmas this year (I Hope)

2007-12-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

To Ms. SOMEBODY named Aralc: Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, you fuck it away.

This year, to save me from bleeding, I WILL GIVE IT TO SOMEONE SPECIAL!

HAHAHA!

Still not very good at all...

2007-12-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

I am still upset about my favourite band's disbandment.

It made me lose concentration on my common test papers.

I still couldn't get over it, while the others already have.

Why am I emotionally attached to them, even though I don't personally know them?

It is because of music. Their music drove me to learn more music than before.

It is because of them that I was able to re-embrace music in my life.

It is because of them that I was able to know the existence of music.

So, why must they be punished for the good deeds that they have done as a legitimate band?!

WHY? NAZE?!

なぜ?! なぜ?! なぜ?!

In time, I do hope that they will be able to continue, safely and healthily.

For now, I got to go. Tomorrow is the big day for me. EOY Anime@Expo is still on.

THE SHOW MUST GO ON!

From,
Alucard Yamada

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Endless Rain by X Japan

I'm walking in the rain
yuku ate mo naku kizutsuita karada nurashi
karamitsuku koori no zawameki
koroshi tsuzukete samayou itsu made mo
Until I can forget your love

nemuri wa mayaku tohou ni kureta
kokoro o shizuka ni tokasu
mai agaru ai o odorasete
furueru karada o kioku no bara ni tsutsumu
I keep my love for you to myself

* Endless rain, fall on my heart kokoro no kizu ni
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

It's a dream, I'm in love with you
madoromi dakishimete
* repeat
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over
koe ni naranai kotoba o kurikaeshite mo
takasugiru hai iro no kabe wasugi satta hi no
omoi o yume ni utsusu
Until I can forget you love
* repeat
Endless rain, let me stay
evermore in your heart
Let my heart take in your tears, take in your memories
* repeat

BeForU to Shut Down?! My goodness...

2007-12-12T01:31:00.000+08:00

Seriously, this news is like WTF.

I can't believe that this band, of all bands, WHY MUST IT BE THEM?!

The truest of the true. The one band that had touched my heart (besides X Japan and Dream Theater).

THIS IS THE SHITS OF A LIFETIME!!!

Words can't describe how I am feeling right now.

No matter, I'll just have to explain it in a form of music.

I dedicate these songs to BeForU.

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Forever Love by X Japan

もう独りで歩けない
時代の風が強すぎて
Ah 傷つくことなんて
慣れたはず　だけど今は...

Ah このまま抱きしめて　
濡れたままの心を
変わり続けるこの時代に
変わらない愛があるなら

Will you hold my heart
涙　受け止めて
もう壊れそうなAll my heart

Forever Love Forever Dream
溢れる想いだけが
激しく　せつなく　時間を埋め尽くす
Oh, tell me why

All I see is blue in my heart

Will you stay with me
風が過ぎ去るまで
また溢れ出す All my tears

Forever Love Forever Dream
このままそばにいて
夜明けに震える心を抱きしめて
Oh Stay with me

Ah 全てが終ればいい
終わりのないこの夜に
Ah 失うものなんて
何もない貴方だけ

Forever Love Forever Dream
このままそばにいて
夜明けに震える心を抱きしめて

Ah Will you stay with me
風が過ぎ去るまで
もう誰よりもそばに

Forever Love Forever Dream
これ以上　歩けない
Oh Tell me why Oh Tell me true
教えて　生きる意味を

Forever Love Forever Dream
溢れる涙の中
輝く季節が　永遠に変わるまで
Forever Love

Translation:
I can't walk on my own any more
The winds of time are too strong
Ah, I should be used to
Getting hurt, but now...

Ah, just like this,
Hold my still damp heart
If unchanging love can exist
In these constantly changing times,

Will you hold my heart,
And catch my tears?
All my heart feels like it will break

Forever Love Forever Dream
Oh, tell me why
Only flowing emotions
Intensely and painfully fill these times

All I see is blue in my heart

Will you stay with me
As long as the wind blows?
All my tears overflow again

Forever Love Forever Dream
Stay by me, just like this
Holding my heart that shakes in the dawn
Oh stay with me

Ah, I wouldn't mind if everything were to end
In this night without end
Ah, I would lose nothing
All I have is you

Forever Love Forever Dream
Stay by me, just like this
Holding my heart that shakes in the dawn

Ah, will you stay with me
As long as the wind blows?
I don't want anyone else by my side

Forever Love Forever Dream
I can't walk any further
Oh, tell my why Oh, tell me true
Teach me the meaning of life

Forever Love Forever Dream
Within the flowing tears
Until the shining seasons change into eternity
Forever Love

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And one more song, above all:

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GRADUATION ~それぞれの明日~ by BeForU

キズついた時
あの泪もそっと薄れていった
振り返ればいつでも自分の居場所があったからかな?

歩いてゆこう
手を握ってそう
いつもそうだった　何があっても信じてた
まっすぐに見つめてた
遠い場所を…

互いに思いあう心があって
そして『信頼』(いみ)を持った
知らず知らずに助けられてた
深い絆(カタチ)だったから

何故か不思議なほど隠れてゆくの
辛かった記憶(こと)だけ
目に映るのは
素直になれた
心から笑えた記憶(こと)

勇気持とう
手を差し出そう！
いつもそう在りたい　これからずっと　信じたい
まっすぐに見つめてる
あの場所まで…

何があっても
諦めなくて
肩よせ合って
ひとつになって…

どんな時でも
必死になって
わからなくて
悩んで…

どれも大切なキヲク…だ・か・ら
かけがえのない　そんな日々を…
きっと忘れない
それぞれの未来(みち)　歩むとしても

歩いてゆこう
未来(あした)見つけよう
今から新しいスタート切って信じよう
まっすぐに　いつかの遠い未来(ばしょ)まで…

忘れないで…

Translation:
GRADUATION ~Respective Tomorrows~
The tears from the time I was hurt
have softly faded away
When I look back at that, could it have been because there was always a place I belonged?

Let’s walk
Like we’re holding hands
It’s always just like that, whatever happened, we had faith,
We looked straight ahead of us
To that faraway place…

Our hearts both had the same feelings
and we had “meaning” (”faith”)
We were unconsciously helped
Because of the deep bonds we had

Somehow our painful memories were
the only thing we kept mysteriously hidden.
Reflected in your eyes
Were the unaffected memories
Of when we laughed from our the bottom of our hearts

Let’s have courage
and hold out our hands!
It’s how we always wanted to be, from now until forever, wanting to believe
looking straight ahead
To that place…

Whatever happened,
not giving up,
putting our shoulders together,
becoming one…

Whatever time it was,
becoming desperate,
Not understanding,
Worrying…

They’re all my precious memories… so,
There’s no substitute for them, those days…
Are something I’ll surely never forget
Even as we walk down our own respective paths to the future

Let’s walk
Let’s search for tomorrow
Because now we’re starting anew, let’s believe
We’ll go straight ahead, until we get to that faraway place in the future someday…

Don’t forget….

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Anyway, I'll just stop here for now.

Don't want to end up destroying myself because of this.

So, see ya later.

Take care.

From,
Alucard Yamada

December Love

2007-12-03T01:15:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm so gonna look forward to lots of things this month.

First and foremost, there will be EOY Anime@Expo on December 15th.

And yes, I do hope to have a date with someone special on Christmas Day.

And by the way, do look out for me as Satoshi a.k.a. Ash Ketchum, OK?

Alright, I'll stop here for now.

Looking forward to lots of things!

From,
Alucard Yamada